i so love that night..as in...no wonder, its not a thing of the guy to talk about his feelings right? pero ginawa and nagawa ko sya that night..kung mabibigyan lang ako ng pagkakataon, i don't want that night to end..its the best night ever in my life..she's really pretty wearing that black dress of hers...
after nun..siguro the day after ata, the group decided to go to moa..i totally enjoyed that day being with her..kung alam nyo lang kung gano kasaya makatabi and mayakap yung mahal mo ng napakatagal...sulit ang punta sa moa..including the fireworks..okay lang mapagod sa kakalakad eh..di na ramdam yun...she looks lovely that night..
naging masaya ung mga sumunod na week...i just want to make this part very short lang..
as i stated in my other blogs, its true that i am beginning to love her more and more each day...yup..kahit ngayong hindi kami nag-uusap...i don't know why pero alam ko ako yung may problema at hindi sya..well, kung meron man syang problema, hindi ko alam un kasi hindi naman nya sasabihin...i traced back the day na nagsimula kaming hindi magusap and its the day na hinatid ko sya pauwi, and she started being silent and i'm asking why but there's only silence in the air..isa kaya un sa mga considered sa line ni ate hara na "may mga bagay na hindi na kailangan pang sabihin"?..yes i'm like jords in a way na gusto kong malaman ung gumulo sakanyang bagay..sino bang hindi gugustuhing malaman un diba?..kung gusto mo talagang makatulong aalamin mo...
i am the type of person na once i sensed something, i wanna know it, or have a clear idea of what is it about..kaya nga nahihirapan akong magsalita sa mga ganung panahon kasi hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko..wala akong idea sa nangyayari..and as far as i want to talk to her that time, alam kong wala akong makukuhang sagot sakanya...
until this very moment hindi parin kami nag-uusap..no communication whatsoever..some of my friends know how much i wanted to talk to her and to be with her..they know how much i miss her...and i don't have plans of ending this semester without talking to her..i just won't let this semester end like this....
i can say that i've missed out alot of things and opportunities..
i am missing the way we text and talk before..
i am missing everything we used to do..
but i'm not quitting..i know what i feel is true..
i'll kinda edit this part of blog if ever something run through my mind again.......
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3/31/07
so yeah...dudugtungan ko na to...this is a confession right?..so everything in here is true..
matapos ko bembangin ang sarili ko sa mga nakalipas na araw..(oo araw araw ko binebembang sarili ko.. kaya nga wala akong tulog diba?) affected much? yes i am...
i feel very stupid not talking to you..i'm missing you more and more each day..its been approximately 3weeks...and eversince it began..i couldn't say i miss you.. even if you don't believe what i'm saying here...still this is what i feel...
kinda dying inside...piece by piece...part by part...
it's very hard..very very hard....and feels very stupid..i am stupid to ignore you..not talking to you for the past days..
i also said that ayoko na magbilang ng araw...pero di ko maiwasan...2days...2days nalang....shet..naiiyak ako...sakit sa mata...
this would end here muna...
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