Life ~ Time

11:11pm June 26, 2011 Sunday

so i promised one of my friends that i would post part of my hidden life story here..i said hidden because only few of the earthlings knows about it and i mean only a few..

okay so here it goes...

i can't say much about my highschool life but i enjoyed it..it was in 2nd year high that the tropang trekking was formed...mike, kelci, jat, bien and I was the first members of the tropa..after a year, Jm, Nikki, Jd and Mai was added to our block.. Jat's sister, Jill; was added after a month or less.. that made a solid 10member tropa.. our last year in highschool came like a flash..had a girlfriend that time during the 2nd quarter of the school year that lasted 6 months(yeah 1st day of college we broke up)..i've been into playing tennis and other sports.. been studying how to cook (well since grade 6 i've been practicing)..animes and stuffs, computer games...that's my highschool life..i'm a very carefree person..love it smooth and with no delay...

college comes and decided to study at DLSU-D..i remembered running along the sidewalks of the oval with JM just to beat the 5:30pm closing time of the registrar to pass my application form for Nursing..but that's not the first time that i am in lasalle that time..i've been to the school a couple of times because my older sister (yeah me being the youngest) and my older cousin studied and graduated in that school..weeks have passed and yeah i passed the nursing entrance exam..met my fellow nursing blockmates (too bad JM was in the other block..haha)..been dragged into playing dota along with my blockmates...ending up playing for funds (well, managed to finish 1st year because of that)..2nd year came and yeah..bad luck strikes...failed Anatomy class..and because of the retention policy, we're not allowed to fail any subject, minor and major alike...i decided to shift course rather than transferring schools..so decided to take up AB COM with my fella JM (i know i know..)..

ate noi was no stranger to me and me to her..same with the MPR Boys..and guess what?..sir pearls conducted the interview..destiny? don't think so..i think it was a matter of luck.. blah blah blah...been to the batch of com22 that time (graduates of 2010-2011)..the first reco with them was a memorable one..that is the first time we've met Jordan..not knowing that time that he was from HSI too just like me and my buddy and he's a blockmate of ours (he's com22 too..)..Jordan was very silent..but that was our mistake..months passed and summer term came..opened up a petition for comm100..met jordan again and some familiar faces..much happened that i don't wanna tell cause its boring...oh..that's the time i've met rizza and x..and automatically became a member of Silvertongue....

i'll just continue next time...i'm tired.....

i thought i could stop counting..but no...

listen to both....

its 12:28 am and i'm still doing my copywriting assignment a.k.a portfolio..my bro is sound asleep and also my mom on the other room..currently drinking coffee with lotsa sugar to keep me awake..

first week of school was quite not okay..still adjusting with the sched and environment..its great to see the whole army again and actually spending time with them in our little kubo..enough for the small talk..

i have this weird feeling that i can't explain..i don't know what it is or why do i feel it..to tell you, this is the first time that i didn't want to attend the first day of class..but i actually went to school..i am pretty sure i am not yet ready to face everyone..well maybe, just maybe...

this is the 2nd week of the sem... and still, i don't wanna do a single thing...(now playing - The Scientist/Coldplay) 

its not that i don't actually wanna talk to her nor call her attention..i just don't know what to say to her..i don't know how should i act in front of her whenever she's there...(now playing - Kismet/Silent Sanctuary) i don't know what to do...weakness strikes...

i just talked to the ninjas about something and the last part of the think-a-lots would be based on that..though i am still not yet ready to make that one as i need more time to think...and think....

a simple learning from a band i knew way back years ago....

"ask others for advice, listen to both your heart and mind..decide before you face everyone"

**as long as i see you smiling and laughing, even though i'm not the one behind it, i'm happy.. even if you don't see it and probably feel it..i miss talking to you so much...i might not be able to approach you because i don't know what to say and how to start..but, i just want you to know..i'm just here if you need me.....

....................always..."

short stop.....

its 8:08pm now..cold....at JM's place with mike and of course JM... i dunno why i composed another blog (told myself that i would end my blogging with a simple note...). so i guess this is not the last one to be on the list...

the first week of the sem finally ended...rest mode...i actually can't decide if i should come to toycon or not...yes, i wanted to go...but given the circumstances and current status of my actions and behavior...i do not want to decide at all..i'm waiting for confirmations.....

"Gusto kitang mayakap, sa araw-araw. Gusto ko talaga. Pero sa tuwing maiisip kong gawin yun, nakikita kong masaya ka naman pala. Pero sana mapasaya din kita, sa abot ng makakaya ko. Sobrang miss na miss na kita." - got this from a friend of mine......same feelings.....

you make me smile when you are near i don't know why? you cheer me up when i am down.. i thank you for that... but like what the song tells me everytime i listen to it...you are the greatest thing that ever happen to me, and even you're not mine, i'd still be yours....

get up~! / think-a-lots part 31

8:46am June 13, 2011 Monday

this is the first time i'm up and running again since friday..still feeling sick though but yeah..i got chores to do.. i now know that normal medications are no good to me..i must have became immune to it...but maybe later after my chores imma gonna sleep again.. i just wanna write a short blog today before school starts tomorrow..and being the 31st part of my blogs..well..i'll just make this one short..my head still hurts so yeah....

i can't believe i am reading the whole script of "One More Chance"..inspired by a friend of mine.. i don't wanna copy paste any of his blogs no more (aside from the fact that i feel the same way as what he states in his blog and got his permission to copy it)..just go over to his page and you'll see it.. i actually watched the film yesterday..downloaded it..and yeah..a good film to watch...

frankly speaking, i don't wanna go to school yet..why?..this is the first time in my life that school's gonna start and i don't know what to do there...it may sound crazy but yeah.. that's the way things are... you have done something you soon regret, you think about it over and over again, suffering from it and bam..you're clueless on what you need to do...or what you want to do...it just hinders your way of life and thinking... 

"there are times where you think quitting is the best way for things to happen, but look where you are right now, if you quit during those hard times you won't be here right now.. you are no quitter and so am i..."

done with the OJT for summer~!

quote quote / think-a-lots part 30

hindi ko alam kung bakit napablog ako ng wala sa oras..dahil na rin siguro sa wala akong ginagawa sa ngayon.. at sa pagkakabasa ko sa blog ng isang matinding ninja..parehas kami ng pag-iisip at iniisip..wala namang saysay kung gumawa ako ng kaparehang blog na kung saan eh parehas lang din ang ilalagay ko..so hiningi ko ang permiso ng butihing ninja para irepost ang kanyang blog sa blog na ito..

"Hindi ko lang kasi ma-gets kung anong gustong sabihin ni Self. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit kahit ako ay naguguluhan sa pangyayari na to. I mean, hindi ba dapat malinaw na sa akin ang mga bagay-bagay. Pero siyempre, sabi ko nga kanina, if it is Love that talks, aba eh, wala na tayong dapat pag-usapan. Bottom line: sobrang mahal na mahal ko siya. And I'm doing every possible way para matabihan ang puso niya.

Okay, so isa-isahin natin. Bakit nga ba ako nag-he-hesitate na sumulong? Una, yung nasira kong pangako ng oras. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, busy-busyhan ka kasi eh, gago ka. Pero sinabi ko, na I'm trying to balance everything. Gusto kong patunayan na kaya ko naman ang lahat basta may tamang management. Binibigyan ng panahon ang lahat ng bagay as fair as I can. Pero totoo, may mga oras ngang dapat nandun ako, pero hindi ko nagawa. Pero ayokong magdahilan. Totoo naman kasi yung sinasabi ko na may responsibilidad ako sa bahay na hindi ko naman talaga maiwan. Call me a home body mama's boy. Pero, trust me, wala kasing ibang magtutulungan. Now to my second point, lagi na lang kasi akong may sabit. Everytime na lang. I would do something na hindi ko namamalayan. Super manhid nga naman ako. Nasaktan ko na, hindi ko pa alam. And I do not deny that. Baduy na ako, no? Go get a beer, para maaliw ka na lang.

Pero above all these, lagi naman ako nagsasabing, na ginagawa ko ang lahat para magbago na ako. Totoo, I'm really trying hard. Minsan lang talaga may mga limitation din ako. De, totoo, wag na tayong magbiruan at magkunwari. Kasi totoo naman, hindi ako tulad ng maraming lalaki. Wala akong absolute freedom, kasi I have responsibilities, sabi ko nga kanina. Pero, as much as possible, I try to make up for those time na nawala ko. Isa pang bagay, hindi naman talaga ako creative, so I cannot put on a show any time kahit gustuhin ko pa, kailangan man o hindi. "

ito ang blog ni matinding ninja..hindi ko alam pero ganitong ganito din ang nararamdaman ko sa ngayon.. i won't deny anything written in here..

this one is from me......it would serve as my own message for her....

I don't care about what other people think.. Because I love you .. what i am trying to say is..
You completed my life, And I would never think of finding a wonderful and perfect girl like you anywhere else, you are one of a kind... The big smile on my face you saw before, that smile of yours is the reason behind it; only with you i can possess that smile of mine..You're the reason why I changed, I stopped bullying people (well, kinda),I stopped being an asshole like i used to be, I stopped all my bad ways, Do you know why?.. it is because I wanna be with you and I dont wanna lose you...ever.....

i wanna chill / think-a-lots part 29

i didn't know why i opened up this "Compose Blog Entry" part of multiply this early morning..
actually i didn't open this up..after i signed in to my account it just so happen that it automatically been redirected to this entry..

as of now..i'm sipping in hot coffee while inside the office, PSP music..i wanna chill as long as i can before starting my work..

still a bit undecided on what i am supposed to do when that day comes.. the guy who is always sure on what he'll do became the guy who's not sure on everything.. what the heck man... in the most simplest things he become so unsure of it..leaving the decision part to hang on a balance.. what will happen if i still think this way when that day comes.. i'm preparing myself to straighten the way i see things around me..

the feeling's the same.. it's the only thing that keeps me going for 2 long months... so i should say..

it feels good seeing her yesterday, still equipped with the smile and the aura i fell in love with..

Sure I may be quiet now, but eventually everything I'm feeling and thinking is going to come out... Can't promise what I'll say...

she's the one.....if you don't believe it..then we're not on the same wavelength....

Gandhi said that whatever you do in life will be insignificant, but it's very important that you do it because nobody else will. Like when someone comes into your life and half of you says: "You're nowhere near ready". And the other half says: "Make her yours forever". They asked me what would I say if I knew you could hear me. I said: "I do know. I love you. God, I miss you..

a reblog from some app..

You are influential and persuasive (whatever). You tend to have a lot of power over people (come again?).
Generally, you use your powers for good (okay..?). You excel at solving other people's problems (their problem, not mine).
Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest (maybe...).

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection (quite the opposite).
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive (somewhat).
You have the classic "Type A" personality (i don't know what this is about).

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life (dunno about this too).
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you (agree).
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself (heck yeah).

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow (*fist-bump*).
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily (*fist-bump again*).
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is (the heck..my fists are hurting.. *fist-bump again*).