Usap tayo?.... / think-a-lots part 15

okay...sabi ko nga masakit ung mata ko eh..kanina pa ko naluluha...nairita ata...

mukang busy ang karamihan sa thesis at paghahanap ng mapapag-OJT-han.. lahat kabado eh...ibang usapan na ba kapag thesis ang inaatupag?..anyways...kaya yan...

kakatapos ko lang pala manuod ng Kimi Dora sa Cinema one...wala kasing ibang movie eh..pero ok naman kahit papano...napansin ko na andun pala ung kanto boys...natawa naman ako...

sabi ni tonio kanina, ang sarap ng buhay ng nakashorts lang at tshirt sa school..tapos nakatsinelas lang at naglalaro sa laptop buong araw, pero sa pelikula lang nangyayari yun..sabi ko kahit naman sa pelikula walang ganun eh, sayang lang sa production yun..tapos kwentuhan..kala mo walang mga sariling problema kung magtawanan eh..eh halata naman na lahat may pinoproblema..dinaan nalang sa tawa para kahit papano gumaan naman...

nagkakwentuhan kami ng pinsan ko pagkauwi ko..siguro 2months ko na atang di nakita ung taong yun..pero andami naming napagusapan...may pinaalala pa sya sakin...

alam nyo naman ang mga usapan lalo na kapag magpipinsan.. lalo na't parang kapatid na turing mo sa pinsan mo..lahat lahat pwede nyong pagusapan...

nagkakwentuhan kami ng sobrang tagal..open na open ung usapan...masaya naman pero naging seryoso..

he reminded me ung nangyari sa kubo..(yes pinaalala nya sakin kasi wala na kaming topic nung panahon na un and yes nakwento ko un sakanya)..i know she's just toying with the idea of jumping out of that library..still i hold her and i don't have any reason to let her go..why?...

sabi ng pinsan ko..minsan may mga nasasabi ang isang tao na iba ang dating sayo..kaya ang nagiging sagot o resulta eh di tama ung nasasabi o sinasagot sayo..kumbaga double meaning..yun daw agad ung pumasok sa utak ko...well in fact oo...he's kinda a mind reader of sort..

when someone asks you to let go, what will you do?.. maybe she's pertaining to different things..different POV..vague...different connotation or ideas would be built from the mind of the receiver...

when she said that that day..or in that moment..to let her go..like literally let her go to that library..iba ung dating sakin..iba ung pumasok sa isip ko...kaya hindi ko nagawang bitawan sya kasi iba ung meaning sakin...ewan ko...basta hindi ko sya nagawang bitawan nung time na un..kahit after nun hindi nya ko pinansin for days i think..or maybe dahil dun kaya hanggang ngayon eh hindi kami nagpapansinan...i don't know....

iba daw ako mag-isip..saglit lang sinabi sakin un..like in a span of 2-3 seconds iba ung dumating sakin...magkaibang perspective kaagad ung nakita at naintindihan ko..and hindi ako nakapagreact or nakapagdecide agad...

tapos nagkausap ulit kami kanina lang ng pinsan ko..oo naisipan ko lang syang ipm sa facebook kasi nagpost sya sa wall ko..at ang pambungad nya kaagad...anong plano mo?..

di ako nakasagot...kahit na alam ko na kung anong dapat kong gawin still hindi ko sya nagawang sagutin..then nagsimulang mairita tong mata ko..ayun..hanggang ngayon irritated parin tong mata ko...over exposed na sa monitor at radiation kaya naiirita?.. i don't know..ang hirap kaya magtype at tumingin sa monitor na may lamat ung screen kasi napagtripang suntukin nung isang gabi...ayan oh..may rainbow color.......

now playing...

Sealed with a kiss

by

Silent Sanctuary

Though we've got to say

Goodbye for the summer

Darling, I promise you this

I'll send you all my love

Every day in a letter

Sealed with a kiss

Yes, it's gonna be a

Cold, lonely summer

But I'll fill the emptiness

I'll send you all my dreams

Every day in a letter

Sealed with a kiss

**

I'll see you in the sunlight

I'll hear your voice everywhere

I'll run to tenderly hold you

But Darling, you won't be there

I don't wanna say

Goodbye for the summer

Knowing the love we'll miss

Oh, let us make a pledge

To meet in September

And seal it with a kiss

(repeat **)

I don't wanna say

Goodbye for the summer

Knowing the love we'll miss

Oh, let us make a pledge

To meet in September

And seal it with a kiss

And seal it with a kiss

And seal it with a kiss

i would end here na...i just edited my other blog and posted this one...usap tayo?.................

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last day ng thesis defense ngayon and kami ang pinakahuling magddefense sa buong incoming 4th year..and ito na rin ata ang last ng pasukan...hayy....di na nga maganda pakiramdam mo, depressed ka pa..hai..professional dapat...ipakitang kaya....kayang kaya to...

morning........

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bakit ganun?.. kinabahan ako bigla nung nakita ko sya kanina...siguro dahil sa dinami dami ng pagkakataon na gusto ko sya makita eh kanina pa sya nagpakita...nagulat talaga ako kasi hindi ko ineexpect na makikita ko sya today kasi nga OJT na diba...hindi ko sya nagawang kausapin ...bakit ba ganon?...nyeta.........

boys day out / think-a-lots part 14

walang plano para sa mga susunod na araw..

hindi ko lubos maisip na madadagdagan pa ang Boys-Day-Out namin.. with X, JM and Jordan (as always.. meron pa bang iba?).hindi namin pinlano pero natuloy eh..nagkayayaan.. at syempre enjoy narin kahit maraming problema.. kakayanin yan..sana..

i just observed na i always have this 3 solid guys in my area..even in highschool.. highschool tropas includes JM (known as bogsz, michael, jm or tatabogsz), another JM (known as Mike, Juri, Jur, JurJur) and Bien (known as Bien, steelwool, scotchbrite, Pua, Lorenzo, Sutacio) and from the college tropas still JM, Jordan (Jords, Jordan Obmerga Garcia, Hordan) and X (dad, dade, eksqueue)..i don't know why pero mas kampante ako..siguro nasanay ako na there are always 3 best guys to back me up..and nagkataon din na nangyari to sa college..amazing..i'll always keep these 5 bros of mine..thanks for the advises and the support from all of you pero..

this song is for all of you guys.. and para na rin siguro sakanya pero not all lines are fitted for her...

Pare Ko by Ely Buendia

Pare ko meron akong prublema

Wag mong sabihing na naman

In lab ako sa isang kolehiyala

Hindo ko maintindihan

Wag na nating idaan sa moboteng usapan

Lalo lang madaragdagan ang sakit ng ulo at bilbil sa tiyan

Anong sarap

Kami'y naging magkaibigan

Napuno ako ng pag-asa

Yun pala haggang dun lang ang kaya

Akala ko ay pwede pa

(refrain)

Masakit mang isipin kailangang tanggapin

Kung kelan ka naging siryoso tsaka ka niya gagaguhin

(chorus)

O, diyos ko ano ba naman ito

Di ba

Tangina nagmukha akong tanga

Pinaasa niya lang ako

Lecheng pag-ibig to-o-o-oh

O diyos ko ano ba naman ito

Sabi niya ayaw niya munang magkasiyota

Dehins ako naniwala

Di nagtagal naging ganun na rin ang tema

Kulang na lang ay sagot niya

Bat ba ang labo niya

Di ko mapinta

Hanggang kelan maghihintay ako ay nabuburat na

Pero minamahal ko siya-a-ha

Di biro

T.L. ako sa kanya

Alam kong nababaduyan ka na sa mga sinasabi ko

Pero sana naman ay maintindihan mo

O pare ko meron ka bang maipapayo

Kung wala ay okey lang

Kailangan lang ay ang iyong pakikiramay

Andito ka ay ayos na

(Repeat refrain and chorus)

so baka mapuno ko nanaman ng lyrics to pero wala na ko maisip eh...so mga pare koy, matinding aura na parang panlaban kay boo ang kelangan ko mula sa inyo...nabembang ko na sarili ko sa last blog ko pero sa tingin ko madadagdagan ko pa yun...

sana lang naman kasi matauhan na ko noh?..ayoko na magbilang ng araw eh..sana talaga.....

Home by Chris Daughtry

I'm staring out into the night 

And trying to hide the pain 

I'm going to the place where love 

and feeling good don't ever cost a thing,

And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain

I'm going home to the place where I belong 

where your love has always been enough for me 

I'm running from you know I think you got me all wrong 

I don't regret this life I chose for me 

But these places and these faces are getting old 

So I'm going home 

The miles are getting longer it seems 

The closer I get to you.... 

I've not always been the best man and friend for you 

But your love remains true and I don't know why

You always seem to give me another try 

I'm going home 

To the place where I belong 

Where your love has always been good enough for me 

I'm running from you know I think you got me all wrong 

I don't regret this life I chose for me 

But these places and these faces are getting old 

Be careful what you wish for 

cause you just might get it all 

you just might get it all and then some you dont want 

be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it all 

You just might get it all 

I'm going home to the place where I belong 

Where your love has always been enough for me 

And I'm running from.. you know I think you got me all wrong 

I don't regret this life I chose for me' 

But these places and these faces are getting old 

But these places and these faces are getting old 

I'm going home 

I'm going home

nagplay yan nung pauwi na kami ni ka-sanggang balikat na si JM..sakto talaga eh..pauwi na kasi kami...pero i like this song..and almost all the songs of Chris Daughtry..maganda kasi talaga..ka relate much?..oo................

siguro last song nalang muna...eto talaga...dedicated to....

hindi ko pa pala nauupdate ulit ung ibang blogs ko...madami pa pala ako ilalagay dun...kapag may time na.. (bukas to malamang or sa susunod na araw..)

Kismet by Silent Sanctuary

Didn't mean to take you for granted

Didn't mean to show I don't care

Didn't mean to throw away this once in a lifetime of chance

Being with you

And I'll drive for 2 hours

To bring Butterfingers

I don't mind the distance

This kismet's a dance

This time I surrender

My everything forever

Life doesn't matter

Just our souls together

Pride no longer has room in me

On bended knees in public I cry

Your name for everyone to know that I love you, I love you

Please hear me now

And I'll drive for 2 hours

To bring Butterfingers

I don't mind the distance

This kismet's a dance

[

This time I surrender

My everything forever

Life doesn't matter

Just our souls together

This time I surrender

My everything forever

Life doesn't matter

Just our souls together

And I'll drive for 2 hours

To bring Butterfingers

I don't mind the distance

This kismet's a dance(dance, dance)

This time I surrender

My everything forever

Life doesn't matter

Just our souls together

This time I surrender

My everything forever

Life doesn't matter

Just our souls together

This time I surrender

My everything....(my everything)..ooohh...

And I'll drive for 2 hours

To bring Butterfingers

I don't mind the distance

This kismet's a dance

best song ng Silent Sanctuary na sakto sa nararamdaman ko ngayon...swak eh...kung marunong lang ako mag embed talaga.... 

oh sya next time nalang ulit............

***this is what i wanna say........***

blog blog / think-a-lots Part 13

so i have typed this one while i'm at school and using JM's laptop in the kubii..actually that's why i went down. supposedly i will be staying at the 2nd floor of JFH to wait for my mome's group to finish their campaign but i suddenly decided to go down and make a blog..

PR campaign already done and the only one left is the effin thesis..plans for tomorrow? i don't know..maybe do thesis the whole day..or go to school or tambay..or go somewhere else...i just don't wanna make plans anymore..i'll take a break from that for a while..

i'll just write everything else in tagalog.

natatawa kami sa nagpplay na music sa winamp ni JM.. eto un oh..

When she cries by Restless Heart

The road I have traveled on

Is paved with good intentions

It's littered with broken dreams

That never quite came true

When all of my hopes were dying

Her love kept me trying

She does her best to hide

The pain that she's been through

(CHORUS)

When she cries at night

And she doesn't think that I can hear her

She tries to hide

All the fear she feels inside

So I pray this time

I can be the man that she deserves

'Cause I die a little each time

When she cries

She's always been there for me

Whenever I've fallen

When nobody else believes

She'll be there by my side

I don't know how she takes it

Just once I'd like to make it

Then there'll be tears of joy

That fill her loving eyes

(CHORUS)

So I pray this time

I can be the man that she deserves

'Cause I die a little each time

When she cries

tapos rico blanco naman ung next kaso nakakatamad hanapin yung lyrics...

anyways...

malapit na matapos tong sem...ilang araw nalang then tapos na...ilang days nalang shet...oo shet talaga.. ugh..ano ba to..oo aawayin ko sarili ko.. (wala ako magawa eh).. 

katanga tanga naman kasi eh..anjan na nga ayaw pa lapitan..sayang oras oh..ilang araw nalang ang meron ka..sige makinig ka nalang sa mga kantahin mo kung ayaw mo, ikaw din naman ang may kasalanan at ikaw ang mawawalan eh..yang pagkailang mo..pwede ba wag mo pansinin yan? di ka naman ganyan dati ah..gumising ka na..please lang naman..hindi ka na makapagfocus sa gusto mong gawin..para sayo din naman yan..

yan ang nagagawa ng walang magawa...sabagay tama nga din naman si subconscious mind ko..hindi na ko kokontra...

konting panahon nalang.............ano ba.........kilos........

halatang wala sa focus eh..pati title at part ng blog mali mali na..ano ba?..umayos ka....aga aga eh...kahit hindi ka nakatulog dahil sa kakalaro mo ng o2 jam at clocktower sa ps2 nyo..hindi ka naman nagkakamali ng ganito...focus pare focus!...

morning syndrome, think-a-lots part 12

its exactly 6:56am..i just want to post something before i go...

i know its late and i would be suffering the most.. i admit it's all my fault and this syndrome have taken its price once again.. once again you asked?..yes, i have this time where my own syndrome would hit and take effect..and it has taken a toll again.. 

in this blog i would tell you what kind of person i am before i explain other things i would put in here later. 

I am a very secretive person, expressing no more than what i need to show.. a very different person when at home and at school.. at home i am better left alone when i'm doing something even if i'm just surfing the net or playing.. i cook meals for the family but i don't eat what i have cooked.. i clean the house every weekends and do gardening stuffs too.. i sometimes help my mom wash our clothes during weekends when i'm not that busy.. i exercise daily..5am i am wide awake and ready for roadwork or jogging for others..usually watch movies till i drop.. but during weekdays, i don't wanna go home..i usually want to spend time at school chatting with friends.. even in my highschool years, my buds don't know what i am really up to.. what kind of music i listen to, something like that.. they refer to me as "boss" because one of my buds said that i handle things differently and effectively than most of them..sadly that's not the truth.. i am the type of person who can mimic other's personality and use them at will..i can handle things differently and effectively because that's what i observed from them..i am a learner of things around me..all of my buds are effective leaders and of them would be JM and another JM known as Mike or Juri.. my best buds since old times...if one would be effective leader, the other could be different..that's what i learned from them..they didn't know that i am only a mirror of what they are..

i have played in different sports and liked them so i'm somewhat sporty..but yeah, i stopped playing since i injured my knee..i have a good sense of direction, too good some would say..

i think the only thing i got above others except for the aikido and judo trainings i've been through, have a very long patience.. too long that i think has a negative effect on me..i am a good planner but i am zero in action..i admit that..i am the opposite of my friends...

i am a guy who could kill his emotions for the sake of going through something.. i just stay lively and happy when i'm not..i stay silent when i need and want to say something.. i could just laugh the whole with the group but inside i feel like i shouldn't be laughing like that.. i am not good at expressing what i like compared to everyone else..cause i prefer to hold it inside.. i don't wanna bother anyone with my own problems.. that's what i am..it's a little bit punishing when i hold back my emotions and helping someone on their problems..twice the weight of the problems i could carry but i manage sometimes to make it through..

the syndrome part would be my own problem..everytime i am in to someone, there would be this particular time where i would suddenly stop talking to that person..i can recall having this syndrome since grade school.i could say that that syndrome makes me lose everything i have put my efforts on.. and that's what i hate at most...

i know it's already late for everything..and i'm also late..its 7:32am...i just need to loosen up a bit before i go to school...

p.s :

as for God, i'm sorry for i think i have wasted the chance you have provided..asking you stuffs and chances but wasting it...

as for her, i take it all up..the fault was mine...i don't know what i am going to do or say..i am blank as of this moment.. i wish i could talk to you... still i feel the same for you and it won't change... i really want to say that i really wanna make it up to you...if you would give me the chance to.. (even if i think that i have wasted all of my chances)...

confession 2 / think-a-lots part 11

i have edited the first part para mailagay ung mga naleft out ko pero to continue...

i so love that night..as in...no wonder, its not a thing of the guy to talk about his feelings right? pero ginawa and nagawa ko sya that night..kung mabibigyan lang ako ng pagkakataon, i don't want that night to end..its the best night ever in my life..she's really pretty wearing that black dress of hers...

after nun..siguro the day after ata, the group decided to go to moa..i totally enjoyed that day being with her..kung alam nyo lang kung gano kasaya makatabi and mayakap yung mahal mo ng napakatagal...sulit ang punta sa moa..including the fireworks..okay lang mapagod sa kakalakad eh..di na ramdam yun...she looks lovely that night..

naging masaya ung mga sumunod na week...i just want to make this part very short lang..

as i stated in my other blogs, its true that i am beginning to love her more and more each day...yup..kahit ngayong hindi kami nag-uusap...i don't know why pero alam ko ako yung may problema at hindi sya..well, kung meron man syang problema, hindi ko alam un kasi hindi naman nya sasabihin...i traced back the day na nagsimula kaming hindi magusap and its the day na hinatid ko sya pauwi, and she started being silent and i'm asking why but there's only silence in the air..isa kaya un sa mga considered sa line ni ate hara na "may mga bagay na hindi na kailangan pang sabihin"?..yes i'm like jords in a way na gusto kong malaman ung gumulo sakanyang bagay..sino bang hindi gugustuhing malaman un diba?..kung gusto mo talagang makatulong aalamin mo...

i am the type of person na once i sensed something, i wanna know it, or have a clear idea of what is it about..kaya nga nahihirapan akong magsalita sa mga ganung panahon kasi hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko..wala akong idea sa nangyayari..and as far as i want to talk to her that time, alam kong wala akong makukuhang sagot sakanya...

until this very moment hindi parin kami nag-uusap..no communication whatsoever..some of my friends know how much i wanted to talk to her and to be with her..they know how much i miss her...and i don't have plans of ending this semester without talking to her..i just won't let this semester end like this....

i can say that i've missed out alot of things and opportunities..

i am missing the way we text and talk before..

i am missing everything we used to do..

but i'm not quitting..i know what i feel is true..

i'll kinda edit this part of blog if ever something run through my mind again.......

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3/31/07

so yeah...dudugtungan ko na to...this is a confession right?..so everything in here is true..

matapos ko bembangin ang sarili ko sa mga nakalipas na araw..(oo araw araw ko binebembang sarili ko.. kaya nga wala akong tulog diba?) affected much? yes i am...

i feel very stupid not talking to you..i'm missing you more and more each day..its been approximately 3weeks...and eversince it began..i couldn't say i miss you.. even if you don't believe what i'm saying here...still this is what i feel...

kinda dying inside...piece by piece...part by part...

it's very hard..very very hard....and feels very stupid..i am stupid to ignore you..not talking to you for the past days..

i also said that ayoko na magbilang ng araw...pero di ko maiwasan...2days...2days nalang....shet..naiiyak ako...sakit sa mata...

this would end here muna...

andami pang gagawin...haii.....

confession / think-a-lots part 10

eto yung kasunod nung part 9..medyo naputol yun eh...aga kasi umalis ng bahay...ngayon lang napost kasi medyo busy...

before i retire for the day (oo papahinga na ko).. i just wanna put everything in my mind right now in this piece of webpage simply called blog...everything and anything in my mind right now...

simulan natin kanina paggising...syempre ayoko pa bumangon..7am mass so dapat gising na ko ng 6am para makapag-ayos..and it turns out na 645 ako nagising...buti nalang walking distance lang ung simbahan dito samin..so medyo bangag pa ko and still nabuksan ko pa ung radio namin..nagulat ako kasi di pa oldies ung song kanina...and nagulat ako na yung song is entitled 

Wag na by Yeng Constantino

Mabigat nanaman ang hikbi

Parang pelikula

May kirot at hapdi ang ngiti

Pilit kinakaya

Pwede mo namang gamitin

Ang panyo ko

Alam mo yan

Kahit wag mo nang ibalik

Wag lang makita kang nagkakaganyan

Wag na

Wag ka nang mangamba

Wag magalala

Luha'y huhupa

Kahit masakit pa

Parang bibigay na

Luha'y huhupa

Ibabaon din

Ng panahon

Mga luha mo ngayong

Iniipon

Wag na

Nabibingi sa linya mo

Wala kong marinig

Kundi patak ng luha mo

Dito sa sahig

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/y/yeng_constantino/wag_na.html ]

Pwede ka namang sumigaw

Kahit sa mukha ko

Alam mo yan

Laway mo'y di iindahin

Wag lang makita kang nagkakaganyan

Wag na

Wag ka nang mangamba

Wag magalala

Luha'y huhupa

Kahit masakit pa

Parang bibigay na

Luha'y huhupa

Ibabaon din

Ng panahon

Mga luha mo ngayong

Iniipon

Wag na

Pwede mo naming gamitin

Ang panyo ko

Alam mo yan

Kahit wag mo nang ibalik

Wag lang makita kang nagkakaganyan

Wag na

Wag ka nang mangamba

Wag magalala

Luha'y huhupa

Kahit masakit pa

Parang bibigay na

Luha'y huhupa

Ibabaon din

Ng panahon

Mga luha mo ngayong

Iniipon

Wag na

bakit ba?..trip ko ilagay buong lyrics eh..familiar kasi and ang ganda nung pagkakakanta....and ang ganda din ng pagkakagawa nung mtv nya...ayos...

so un nga...medyo nalate kami ni kuya sa mass...mga around 10 or 15mins ata....

sabi sa mass magconfess or mangumpisal daw..(o diba nakikinig ako...) eh hindi possible sa ngayon kasi nagmamadali kami kanina..may pupuntahan kasi eh...dito ko nalang gagawin un..pero mya mya na... 

so naglalakad ako papunta dun sa bibilhan ko ng almusal namin (angel's burger tapat ng 7-11 dito samin)..so sinuot ko ung earphones ko..syempre malayo layo un eh...first song na tumugtog is this....

Burnout by Sugarfree

O wag kang tumingin
Ng ganyan sa ‘kin
Wag mo akong kulitin
Wag mo akong tanungin

Dahil katulad mo
Ako rin ay nagbago
Di na tayo katulad ng dati
Kay bilis ng sandali

O kay tagal kitang minahal
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/s/sugarfree/burnout.html ]
Kung iisipin mo
Di naman dati ganito
Teka muna teka lang
Kailan tayo nailang

Kung iisipin mo
Di naman dati ganito
Kay bilis kasi ng buhay
Pati tayo natangay

O kay tagal kitang minahal

Tinatawag kita
Sinusuyo kita
Di mo man marinig
Di mo man madama

O kay tagal kitang mamahalin

yes yan ung tugtog...nakshuffle po ang psp ko so hindi yan sadya..habang tumutugtog yan..napapaisip ako kung ano na nga bang gagawin ko...muntik ko na ngang makalimutan kung saan ako pupunta at anong gagawin ko dun eh...oo medyo napaisip ako bigla ng hindi ko alam kung bakit...

moving on...nakabili na ko ng almusal at lahat ng kailangan ko and its already 10mins before 10am...i clicked on R1 of my psp para magchange ng song and ito ung nagplay..

Nandito by Parokya ni Edgar

Ilan taon nang nagdaan
Di ko pa rin natitikman na ang
Ika’y mahalikan
At madama ang yong kamay
Hinahaplos ang aking mukha hindi
Mo ba nakikita

Na ako’y maghihintay kailan pa
Man
Hindi magbabago ikaw lang
Ang laman ng puso ko

Naaalala mo pa ba
Inaawitan pa kita halos lahat
Ay nagawa
Di mo pa rin naramdaman
Kahit isang sulyap man lang
Sana naman ay pagbibigyan

Oh, dapat malaman mo na
Ako’y mamamatay
Kung di kita kapiling habang
Buhay
Dapat malaman mo na ikaw
Lamang ang syang
Minamahal kailanman

medyo unknown ung song sa karamihan kasi hindi naman sila nag-album launch nito..talagang napapaisip na ko eh...disturbed kumbaga...madami akong kelangan gawin so dapat yun ung ginagawa ko ngayon diba?..pero hindi eh......

so nabanggit ni father kanina sa mass na mangumpisal na diba?...so eto na yun...

IF YOU ARE INTERESTED JUST KEEP ON READING....

so ito na ang major confession ko...once ko palang gagawin to...dala na rin siguro ng matinding pag-iisip....its all about her....

nung una hindi ko sya napapansin..as in wala..hindi ko feel..kasi hindi ko pa sya kilala nung time na un..alam ko LB (legislative board) sya ng organization namin and i'm an EB (Executive Board) at that time.. di ko alam kung ano ng position ko nun, kung finance ba or operations na..pero sya, head of performers..hanggang ngayon..

hindi ko nga alam kung pano nangyari eh..pero dahil lang sa isang message sa isang website nagsimula..i started to know more about her and sobrang naging kaclose na..as in..she's really fun to be with..todo kung todo eh..the most cheerful girl i have ever met in my life..

define charming (in her own ways), beautiful, smart, bubbly, energetic etc.. sya na eh.. her own little ways make her unique from anyone else..sobrang sweet, caring kahit na medyo sadista, still ramdam mo ung care nya...kakaiba sya talaga...

shooting days palang ng Telecine (part ng RTV na pinageeffortan talaga ng bawat group) talagang magkatext na kami..parang walang araw na hindi kami nagkakausap..and there was a time na last days ng shoot for the film na 3days straight kaming nagsshoot..yup..72 hours kaming gising..rush mode na ung group namin kasi andami pang hindi tapos...alam ko medyo nagkatampuhan pa kami nun..kasi hindi sya nagrereply sa text ko so i kinda think na galit sya..then i got surprised na around 11pm or 12 nagtext sya..saying na she's still up and drinking a little..then i replied..and then she said if i want her to stay up para may kausap ako...yup..its 11:36pm "jan parin kau? do u want me to stay up para may kausap ka?" yan ung pinakatext nya...and as far as i can remember she called up that night...

nakapagpahinga naman ako nun, power nap,, 1hour lang then go na ulit sa shoot..siguro mga around 6 or 7am..tumawag sya para maggood morning and makausap ako..it really made my day kasi wala namang natawag sakin para lang kumustahin ako eh..she's the first one to do that and sa ganung oras...marami pang nangyari that day na ikinatuwa ko..as in..dahil sakanya.....

i decided to confess everything to her nung night ng Gawad Tala '10 (awarding event for RTV Productions).. and yes kung ano man ung sinabi ko nung night na yun..totoo un..

i wanna say I Love You..

hindi to joke..it's really what i feel..

I love you..

may reason na akong bumalik dito ngayong nasabi ko na sayo..

i won't leave you no matter what...

and the rest was history....tanda ko pa diba?..i won't forget that night and time na binigay sakin to confess like that..it's like my final moment in life..

i still hold on to my words that night...its for real..i won't write 10 sets of blog about a person kung wala lang diba...there's no one like her...

eto nga pala ung tumugtog sa isip ko nung time na un......

Feels Like by Sugarfree

I was down and out on a lonely night

With no light ahead in sight

'Til I found myself in a place

Where the earth kisses the sky

And there you were across the room

Kissin' away all its gloom

There's something 'bout tonight

Something and it feels so right

CHORUS

Woh-hoh-oh

Woh-hoh-oh

Woh-hoh-oh

It feels like love tonight

[Repeat]

There's something 'bout the way you smile

Haven't felt like this in quite a while

Would you like a drink or two

While you're watching me watching you

Woh, stay for just a little bit more

Please stay and light my way

'Cause there's something 'bout tonight

Something and it feels so right

[Repeat CHORUS except last word on the second time]

BRIDGE

And it feels so right

I'm thinking about you tonight

Oh woh-woh-woh

Oh, just when I've given up on this game we call love

Oh, something 'bout you tells me

Life will never be the same again

[Repeat CHORUS once]

Tonight

[Repeat CHORUS]

the song really fits the mood that night and how i felt...and when i see pictures of us..ahh grabe, brings back memories...nakakatawa mang isipin pero its a dream that came true that night....wala na kong mahihiling pa nung time na yun...

this would end this part of confession...marami pa sana pero i've ran out of time...