Friday, September 20, 2013

Encounters with Silly Qs

September 20, 2013 Friday
2:14pm

There are times in our lives that we are asked silly slash stupid questions by random people somewhere over the rainbow. It might be kinda rude not to answer those Qs without blurting out sarcastic answers (being able to process sarcasm / sarcastic thoughts is a sign of a healthy brain function) to them and some you would find offensive. It just happens to everyone i think but actually its fun to answer them as witty as possible. Through out my first existence as a human person in this world (some culture says that if you have a birthmark, that's the reason or cause of your death in your first existence), i too encountered those questions by people unknown to me. Well, some of them are worth the discussion which will be written here.

First Question: Why aren't you discussing with your group? (as asked by most of my teachers and professors during my time being a student)

It's not that i don't have anything to say to the group nor i do not have any ideas to give them, its just that i am the kind of human person that usually observes first before doing or saying anything. I do gather their (groupmates) ideas and mash them with mine, separating same to other ideas that i have. Principle wise, its my way of giving you the stage so that you can throw in your piece, i'll hear you out and hopefully when its my time to talk then you'll listen to my piece as well. Silence does not always connotes negligence or not knowing anything or for some, being shy. Sometimes those description of why a person stays silent is true, but most of the time; its not. I do find silence as my means of observing others. Most of my friends would catch me dead silent on a corner while they are discussing something but they do know why. I do observe a lot, most of the time i just put my headset on then do my observation routine. Usually during first meetings, i don't talk much; I just listen and observe the other person (mannerisms, tone of voice, gestures) so that i will know how to interact with him/her. Believe me its quite useful because i always do this. :)

Second Question: What separates you from other guys? (this one was thrown by my Socio-Anthropology professor way back 1st year college)

I dunno, hobbies wise, I do play a lot of games (from sports to platform gaming to the larong kalye of the 90's). I mainly play (platform wise) RTS (Real Time Strategy / Front Mission series to Romance of the Three Kingdoms) games, HacknSlash (Dynasty Warriors to Warriors Orochi 1 and 2) , and a little bit of RPG (Role Playing Games / Final Fantasy domain to Suikoden series) and right now i'm into playing League of Legends like any other gamer guys. I do a lot of sports before i took an arrow to the knee (lol, i just injured my knee). Right now, i do enjoy swimming, badminton, basketball and tennis. 

I don't dress to impress. I just wear whats available in the closet as long  as i'm comfortable with it. Plain shirts + cargo pants/ jogging pants + sneaks or running shoes are my getup since highschool. Sometimes i go out wearing plain tops + shorts + havs or sandals as long as i'm going out with my buddies ahaha. They always say wear something that you're comfortable with so yeah, i wear what i want not because i need to impress others but because i'm comfortable with it. In my highschool circle of old friends, we have this "be in your best pambahay attire" everytime we meet thus saving us the time of picking bongacious clothings.

I'm a boyscout when it comes to emergency things. I always have an umbrella with me, medicine for headaches and antihistamines. I do have bandaids and cotton balls hidden away in my bag. I always bring a spare phone with me in case my main phone dies out. I also bring extra handkerchief or face towel wherever I go. 

Sometimes i bring my laptop with me to work but right now, i only bring my PSP with me (yeah, i play while at work). I always have music playing in my station. I do have my own tumbler for my coffee (coffee lover here lol).

I really don't know what separates me from other guys but some of my friends stated that i'm not like the other guys they know. I think its on how i handle things. I always think before i do something (I usually buy more options than settling just for the last resort thing.) I just wanna take things smoothly. I don't rush things whether some that needs immediate decision ( i see to it that i will take my time thinking about it before deciding). Some says i have this weird aura (I dunno what they are saying but i hope its positive hahahaha)

Third Question: Why do you have few friends? (asked by my mentor at work)

First of all, i have trust issues. I do trusted a lot of people way back but then destroyed my trust. Those who I call my friends now are those people whom I met and trusted, whom i enjoyed being with and most of all, those who value the word TRUST. I don't need a lot of friends (i'm no networking service) who can talk at my back. What i have is a solid circle of people who i can trust and run into for small talks or advices. I have two solid groups of people whom i respect and trust at the same time: Trekking (highschool buds) and 20-five (college buds). I do value both groups the same, no biases whatsoever. We have disputes, we solve them by talking not by bashing. The importance of having comrades during a war is that you have a team to rely on and its the same as having a solid network of close friends that you can rely and trust. If ever there would be an earthly catastrophe (zombie outbreak / the last of us thing) that would happen, i would choose to be with those guys because we as a group knows our own limits and capabilities which is quite the basics of being in a group. Last thing i have to say is that do not trust everybody that you meet, learn to trust only those who've made themselves known to you and continues to prove themselves worthy to be part of your life.

Sunday, September 8, 2013

Bus thoughts

Sept 08, 2013  10:10pm
Sunday

Why the ominous looking eyes?
Blank empty eyes of yours
What really happened?
Why the hate? 

I don't hate
I don't get mad
I just don't

What do you want?
What do you need?

Nothing

Do you wear contacts?
Natural brown eyes?

I dunno, i haven't noticed. Are they?

Yes, but they're blank
emotionless, deep dark.. scary.

I am.

Looks could kill
Do you know that?

If it can then I'm already a murderer

You know what?
You're weird.

From your point of view, maybe..
But from mine..

I am normal and everybody else is weird..