Questions sent by a friend..

11:58am 

November 5, 2013

Tuesday

So my friend forwarded this questionnaire to me via facebook. So yeah, i am here with my answers to this random but enlightening set of questions from somewhere over the rainbow. 

 

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someones eyes when you are telling someone how you feel, or looking into someones eyes when they are telling you how they feel? 

• The second one. First one is a must when telling somebody how you feel about them.

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way? 

•  The last time i was really really angry was like when i was around 9-12years old and somebody lost the remote control for my RC. Nah, its just a toy anyway and besides, its normal for a kid at that age to be angry for losing toys. hahahaha

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them? 

•  This is situational, if i personally know the captain of the airplane, i would call him (if he does not know about the fire at the back or if he's too busy looking at that red warning on his headboard) and notify him so that he may still attempt an emergency landing. If the first one is not applicable, i will probably call anyone from my family and tell them of my luck riding on a burning plane *sarcasm*

4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid? 

• I won't tell them because i don't want them to be down and be different around me. Well, do stuffs i wanna do and execute all my activity plans. Just enjoy myself out before retiring this earthly bod of mine. You can't remove fear in a person given that situation. At first there would be fear, but then all you can do is accept what will happen after a month.

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust. 

• I would choose trust. It's easy to love someone but its hard to gain trust from that someone even if you love him/her. And i do believe that its better to say "i trust you" than "i love you".

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not? 

• I would. I can find another work but i can't replace other's life. 

7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most? 

•  the second one. being hurt while inlove is part of the risks involve in a relationship but getting your trust destroyed is simply the hardest one to face. As they say, Trust takes time to build and seconds to break.

8. Your best friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more than just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you (or did you) do/say? 

• Its a win/win for me. I wouldn't say it like that of course hahaha. For a guy, its hard to say what you truly feel so in turn, i would just let her feel how much i feel about her.

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not? 

•  I will not because surely he/she would get mad at me for wasting 1year of my life for them to be back for just an hour. If its of equivalent trade (sacrifice 1year = they get to live for 1year) then i would do so.

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend? 

•  Yes

11. Does love = sex? 

• No

12. Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not? 

•  If i have another work to blitz into and if i'm still a bachelor when this situation rises, then yeah. But if i also have a family to support then certainly no.

13. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person? 

•  SKIIIIPPPP!!!

14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite/same sex, you love them or that you do not love them back? 

•  i dunno, for me they weigh the same.. ^_^"

15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose? 

•  Life. do i still need to explain why? hahaha

16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you? 

•  Everyday to my mom.

17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why? 

•  The chickenpox outbreak within the family so that i could donate my blood for a friend of mine who will be undergo an operation this month.
  

18. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not? 

•  Yes, If that would save person's life. We only have one life so save it.

19. You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision? 

•  I wish i still had my granny..

20. Are you old fashioned? 

•  Most of my personality: yes.

21. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it? 

•  uhhh.. everytime? i just do what i need to do and does not expect anything in return. Expectation kills. hahah

22. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why? 

•  First one because i will learn something that i won't learn when i indeed choose the second option (there's nothing substantial to learn from this option).

23. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?

• Be immortal, have a photographic memory, and have a memory that never fades. Some would be against immortality and say "they don't want to see their loved ones perish right before their eyes" but you'll have to deal with something close to that at some point in your life. For me, to choose those three, would just want to be the one that the past generations left for the enlightenment of the future generations. I would be a living epitaph for things that happened in the past. To sacrifice my life to see everyone close to me age and retire but on the other hand live and share knowledge on future generation is an okay trade.

Encounters with Silly Qs

September 20, 2013 Friday

2:14pm

There are times in our lives that we are asked silly slash stupid questions by random people somewhere over the rainbow. It might be kinda rude not to answer those Qs without blurting out sarcastic answers (being able to process sarcasm / sarcastic thoughts is a sign of a healthy brain function) to them and some you would find offensive. It just happens to everyone i think but actually its fun to answer them as witty as possible. Through out my first existence as a human person in this world (some culture says that if you have a birthmark, that's the reason or cause of your death in your first existence), i too encountered those questions by people unknown to me. Well, some of them are worth the discussion which will be written here.

First Question: Why aren't you discussing with your group? (as asked by most of my teachers and professors during my time being a student)

It's not that i don't have anything to say to the group nor i do not have any ideas to give them, its just that i am the kind of human person that usually observes first before doing or saying anything. I do gather their (groupmates) ideas and mash them with mine, separating same to other ideas that i have. Principle wise, its my way of giving you the stage so that you can throw in your piece, i'll hear you out and hopefully when its my time to talk then you'll listen to my piece as well. Silence does not always connotes negligence or not knowing anything or for some, being shy. Sometimes those description of why a person stays silent is true, but most of the time; its not. I do find silence as my means of observing others. Most of my friends would catch me dead silent on a corner while they are discussing something but they do know why. I do observe a lot, most of the time i just put my headset on then do my observation routine. Usually during first meetings, i don't talk much; I just listen and observe the other person (mannerisms, tone of voice, gestures) so that i will know how to interact with him/her. Believe me its quite useful because i always do this. :)

Second Question: What separates you from other guys? (this one was thrown by my Socio-Anthropology professor way back 1st year college)

I dunno, hobbies wise, I do play a lot of games (from sports to platform gaming to the larong kalye of the 90's). I mainly play (platform wise) RTS (Real Time Strategy / Front Mission series to Romance of the Three Kingdoms) games, HacknSlash (Dynasty Warriors to Warriors Orochi 1 and 2) , and a little bit of RPG (Role Playing Games / Final Fantasy domain to Suikoden series) and right now i'm into playing League of Legends like any other gamer guys. I do a lot of sports before i took an arrow to the knee (lol, i just injured my knee). Right now, i do enjoy swimming, badminton, basketball and tennis. 

I don't dress to impress. I just wear whats available in the closet as long  as i'm comfortable with it. Plain shirts + cargo pants/ jogging pants + sneaks or running shoes are my getup since highschool. Sometimes i go out wearing plain tops + shorts + havs or sandals as long as i'm going out with my buddies ahaha. They always say wear something that you're comfortable with so yeah, i wear what i want not because i need to impress others but because i'm comfortable with it. In my highschool circle of old friends, we have this "be in your best pambahay attire" everytime we meet thus saving us the time of picking bongacious clothings.

I'm a boyscout when it comes to emergency things. I always have an umbrella with me, medicine for headaches and antihistamines. I do have bandaids and cotton balls hidden away in my bag. I always bring a spare phone with me in case my main phone dies out. I also bring extra handkerchief or face towel wherever I go. 

Sometimes i bring my laptop with me to work but right now, i only bring my PSP with me (yeah, i play while at work). I always have music playing in my station. I do have my own tumbler for my coffee (coffee lover here lol).

I really don't know what separates me from other guys but some of my friends stated that i'm not like the other guys they know. I think its on how i handle things. I always think before i do something (I usually buy more options than settling just for the last resort thing.) I just wanna take things smoothly. I don't rush things whether some that needs immediate decision ( i see to it that i will take my time thinking about it before deciding). Some says i have this weird aura (I dunno what they are saying but i hope its positive hahahaha)

Third Question: Why do you have few friends? (asked by my mentor at work)

First of all, i have trust issues. I do trusted a lot of people way back but then destroyed my trust. Those who I call my friends now are those people whom I met and trusted, whom i enjoyed being with and most of all, those who value the word TRUST. I don't need a lot of friends (i'm no networking service) who can talk at my back. What i have is a solid circle of people who i can trust and run into for small talks or advices. I have two solid groups of people whom i respect and trust at the same time: Trekking (highschool buds) and 20-five (college buds). I do value both groups the same, no biases whatsoever. We have disputes, we solve them by talking not by bashing. The importance of having comrades during a war is that you have a team to rely on and its the same as having a solid network of close friends that you can rely and trust. If ever there would be an earthly catastrophe (zombie outbreak / the last of us thing) that would happen, i would choose to be with those guys because we as a group knows our own limits and capabilities which is quite the basics of being in a group. Last thing i have to say is that do not trust everybody that you meet, learn to trust only those who've made themselves known to you and continues to prove themselves worthy to be part of your life.

Bus thoughts

Sept 08, 2013  10:10pm

Sunday

Why the ominous looking eyes?

Blank empty eyes of yours

What really happened?

Why the hate? 

I don't hate

I don't get mad

I just don't

What do you want?

What do you need?

Nothing

Do you wear contacts?

Natural brown eyes?

I dunno, i haven't noticed. Are they?

Yes, but they're blank

emotionless, deep dark.. scary.

I am.

Looks could kill

Do you know that?

If it can then I'm already a murderer

You know what?

You're weird.

From your point of view, maybe..

But from mine..

I am normal and everybody else is weird..

How to Move On (Para sa mga hirap makalimot)

August 9 2013 Friday

10:13am

I know its hard for majority of us to forget someone who gave us memories to cherish, those tight long hugs and encouragements. But at some point in time, he/she decided to end it all up.. He/she thinks that its for the best even if you don't want to break up with him/her (when one stops to make the effort, the relationship would surely die down). It feels like the whole world turned against you, it like a nightmare that suddenly came into reality.. You started to shun others of your attention, you feel like you're just a trash that nobody likes. But what if i tell you (not just me but others as well) that someone out there cares for you? someone out there doesn't want you to suffer, that someone out there wants to see you smile again and he/she can love you better than the last one but you keep on ignoring him/her and even your friends. Its not healthy for you to stay on that state, you need to move on but you'll ask "How?" and follow up with phrases like "he's the one" etc etc.. So lets get straight to the point..

How to Move On:

Let me first say that i'm no expert on this trivial point in everyone's life..no one is. This is just to give you an idea on how to move on and enjoy life more. I will be using Filipino in this one (easier for me to explain using my mother tongue)

Cry it all out 

Iiyak mo yan hanggang gaano mo katagal gusto. Its a way for you to ease the PAIN. Mapapansin mo nalang isang araw hindi ka na iiyak pa for the same reason.

Talk to your FRIENDS

Spend time talking to your friends. Wag kang magkulong sa kwarto mo or sa mundong nasa isip mo. Yung mga kaibigan mo ang magiging sandalan mo sa mga panahon na ito at sila rin ang makakaintindi sa pinagdaraanan mo. Ilabas mo lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman mo sa pagkausap sa iyong mga kaibigan.

Wag maging ASSUMING

eto yung nangyayari sa mga bagong break up lang. Iniisip mo na babalik pa sya (same lang kahit ikaw yung nakipagbreak, aminin mo man o hindi, may time na iniisip mong sana bumalik pa sya) pero itigil mo na ang ganyang pag-iisip. Kung totoong mahal ka nya, hindi ka nya iiwan, gagawa sya ng effort para magkita kayo sa mga planado nyong pagkikita at hindi puro pangako nalang na laging napapako. Stop Assuming mga boyet at girlie.

ERASE YOUR BITTERNESS

Mahirap magpatawad. Aminin natin yan lalo na kung niloko tayo ng taong iyon. Kung ikaw naman ang nakipagbreak, same thing lang, wag kang magpakabitter kapag may bago na sya. Galaw galaw din. Kailangan mong alisin yung galit at lungkot sa puso mo. Isipin mo na parang sinisigaw na sayo ni God na "HINDI SIYA ANG PARA SAYO ANAK." and everything happens for a reason (kahit ikaw pa ang nakipagbreak still it happens for a reason) .

ACCEPT

Tanggapin mo na wala na kayo, tanggapin mo na nakipagbreak ka na. Balang araw magpapasalamat ka dahil iniwan ka nya (o iniwan mo sya). Marami pang pagkakataon na makakita ka ng magmamahal sayo.

GIVE YOURSELF A CHANCE TO LOVE SOMEONE ELSE

Hindi ko sinasabing maghanap kayo ng rebound boyet / girlie. The point is "ilaan mo yung time mo sa ibang mga bagay, kapag may pumasok na tao sa buhay mo na naglakas loob magtapat sayo, give him/her a chance to love you. PERO wag na wag na wag mo syang lolokohin dahil ganun din ang naramdaman mo, mas magandang ireciprocate mo yung feelings of love towards the guy/girl, makakatulong na sa pag mmove on mo, sasaya pa kayo. Wag mo rin syang paasahin, if nagtapat sya sayo and you still can't commit then say it straight. Kapag sinabi nyang maghihintay sya, let him pero pag wala talaga, sabihin mo. Mahirap maghintay at umasa.

BE WISE 

Hindi masamang magmahal ng WAGAS pero magtira ka parin para sa sarili mo, don't give 100%. Kung sa tingin mo naman eh mas magiging okay ka sa bagong naghihintay sayo, let the feelings evolve, develop or mature kung ano man ang tamang term. 

Hindi madali, aaminin ko rin yan. Pero moving on is a process, take it slowly, step by step and love again. Aaminin ko na matagal din ako bago nakamove on. Matagal na process pero kakayanin dapat.

 

Random things about me

August 4, 2013
10:32pm Sunday

So I'm back with another set of random things about me that i saw from the internet. Let us begin!!

What is your middle name?: Gayamo

What was favourite subject at school?: PE, Science and World History

What is your favourite drink?: Kopiko Brown Coffee

What is your favourite song at the moment?: Fade Away by Sugarfree (too bad they already disbanded -_-)
 What is your favourite food?: Pasta! (except for Carbonara)

What is the last thing you bought?: A forty pesos (PhP 40.00) earplugs in CD-R King


Favourite book of all time?: Stainless Longganisa by Bob Ong

Favourite Colour?: White

Do you have any pets?: Yes

Favourite Perfume?: oh i forgot the name.. lol

Favourite Holiday?: New Year

Are you married?: Nope

Have you ever been out of the country, if so how many times?: Nope

Do you speak any other language?: Yeah, besides my native tongue (Filipino), I'm very well versed in English, 5%  Japanese, 5 stars in Gibberish.

How many siblings do you have?: One sister and one brother (i'm the youngest)

What is your favourite shop?: None

Favourite restaurant?: I have 2 faves (3 if you consider Paotsin as a restaurant) so it would be World of Chicken and Shakeys

When was the last time you cried?: 9years ago (according to my other post way back)

Favourite Blog?: none


Favourite Movie?: I am Legend, League of Extraordinary Gentleman, Pirates of the Caribbean (all of them), Lord of the Rings Trilogy, The Matrix Trilogy, Bruce Almighty, Seven Pounds

Favourite TV show?: Heroes, Anthony Bourdain (all of his shows), 15minute meals with Jamie Oliver, Iron Chef

PC or Mac?: PC

What phone do you have?: LG L3 E400 and Samsung Champ

How tall are you?: 5ft 8.5in

Can you cook?: Yes.

So that's it.. i'm trying to find others like this one cause its fun to answer these kinds of questions. lol

25 Things About Me

Sunday / July 21, 2013 / 8:26 pm

Dapat talaga puro rants lang ang ilalagay ko sa blog kong to ngayon, pero dahil sobra sobra na yung pagka BV ko for the past 2 days.. I decided not to continue with the "emo" theme of the whole blog (ayokong nagpapatama kahit na kanino kaya might as well keep it for myself). So now, eto nalang muna ang ipopost ko..

25 Things You May or May Not Know About Me

1.) Wala akong sariling kwarto

• Yep, naghahati kami ng aking kuya sa isang malaking kama (kasya apat na tao kapag nakahiga, lagpas isang dosena kapag nakatayo) at malakas na electric fan.

2.) Mahilig ako sa Pancit

• Kahit anong luto sa Pancit okay ako (lalo na kapag Pansit Habhab) :3

3.) May walo (8) akong tropa nung highschool at hanggang ngayon tropa parin

• Yung iba sa kanila since Grade 5 pa. So alam na namin ang takbo ng mga utak ng isa't-isa

4.) May dose (12) akong tropa nung college

• 1st course ko ay Nursing pero wala na kong kaconnect sa mga naging kaibigan ko doon (yep, kahit pagbati lang ng Happy birthday wala. Nung lumipat ako ng Communication, nagkaroon ako ng mga bagong tropa. Inaamin ko sa doseng katao na yan, meron akong kinoconsider na inner circle (lima sila)

5.) Di ako nagala ng malayo kapag walang kasamang katropa

• Nakakaboring kaya yun kapag wala kang kasama

6.) Touchy akong tao

• Ganun lang talaga ako kaya wag kayong matakot sakin kung bigla ko kayong kalabitin, hawakan or i-hug (eto eh nakasanayan na nung nasa college pa ko, para sa amin eto yung form of greeting namin sa tropa)
• Gustong gusto kong hinahawakan yung kamay (kapag babae lang ah, di talo ang mga boys)

7.) Old School in terms of Panliligaw

• Yep, ako yung taong mabagal kumilos pagdating jan, dahil pinakikiramdaman ko lahat ng kinikilos ko at nung isa. Wala akong maipagmamalaking talent (kung talent yung angking galing sa pagkuha ng datos tungkol sa ibang tao na di ko kakilala, pwede na). May pagka torpe talaga ako kasi marami na kong napagdaanan na di kanais nais.
• Hindi ako nagbibitiw ng L word hangga't hindi ko naipaparamdam. Paramdam muna bago banggit.

8.) Ako yung laging huling nagcconfirm sa mga lakad

• May rule ako sa mga tropa ko nung highschool na kapag may event or gala, hindi ako pupunta kung hindi sila lahat pupunta (yup and they know about it kaya di sila nagpplan ng mga event/party na di makakapunta yung iba kasi di ako pupunta)

9.) Tinatawag akong "Boss" nung mga tropa ko nung highschool

• Hindi ko alam kung paano or saan nagsimula pero itatanong ko sakanila kung bakit.

10.) Nakatago lahat ng mga luma kong cellphone

• Lahat sila nagana (with matching complete accessories pa). Kaya ko sila tinatago ay para sa mga emergency situations (tulad nalang kung kelangan kong sirain yung pader namin, gagamitin ko yung nokia ko.)

11.) Napagkakasya ko ang 200 sa isang araw ng galaan

• Hindi ako magastos na tao at hindi rin ako kuripot na tao. Okay na ko sa lunch na turo-turo or yung Paotsin sa SM.

12.) Di pa ko naliligaw sa tanang buhay ko

• Mukhang hindi makatotohanan pero maniwala kayo't sa hindi totoo yan. Siguro nung nagpasabog si God ng sense of direction, nagssun bathing ako. 

13.) May sarili akong mundo kapag naka earphones na ko

• Earphones on - Max Volume - World Off (pero hindi ibig sabihin na di ko na kayo naririnig kapag naguusap kayo. Isa pa ito sa mga "talent" na meron ako; kahit bulong lang yan basta within 0-3meters away naririnig ko yan).
• Isa din itong indication na ayokong makisali sa usapan ninyo or ayoko lang marinig ang pinag-uusapan nyo

14.) Ayoko nung hindi ko naiintindihan yung pinag-uusapan nila

• Nakaka alien kaya tsaka nakaka - OP pag ganun

15.) Ako ang Physical embodiment ng mga salitang "Hindi nag-aaral pero nakagraduate"

• Dinaan ko sa stock knowledge at creativity ang college ko (dahil yun ang required sa course namin)

16.) Hindi ako nakikipag-usap online sa mga taong hindi ko gusto kausapin

• Siguro sa buong list ko, apat lang yung kinakausap ko kaya nakakalungkot kapag hindi sila nagrereply.

17.) Marunong akong magluto pero di ko maperfect ang sunny side up na itlog

• Marami na kong naluto na mga putahe (kahit yung mga putahe ng ibang bansa nagagawa kong iluto) pero hindi ko parin maperfect ang pagluluto ng sunny side up na itlog.

18.) Ako yung taong pala-hatid

• Gustong-gusto kong naghahatid once na natapos yung tambay or gala kasama yung mga tropa ko (or siguro dahil nakaugalian na ang ganun samin)

 19.) I always save a number on my phone

• Basta number na ginamit ng kaibigan ko sinasave ko (for emergency purposes at para maiwasan ko yung pagtetext ng "Hu u?")

20.) Dalawa palang mula sa lahat ng mga katropa ko ang nakapunta at nakakaalala kung nasaan ang bahay namin

• Yep, dahil hindi ako sanay na nagpapapunta ng mga tao sa bahay namin sa kadahilanang wala akong maipapakain sa kanila at  parang gubat ang bahay namin (hindi sementado yung labas at maraming puno't mga halaman)

21.) Pag sinabi kong maghihintay ako, naghihintay ako

• Eto na siguro yung malaking "double-edged sword" ng pagkatao ko. Basta sinabi kong maghihintay ako, naghihintay talaga ako na kadalasang nagiging sanhi ng aking mga disappointment (ayoko talaga ng naddisappoint)

23.) Its either i'm early or i'm not going

• Lagi akong ganyan, dumadating ng sobrang aga sa meeting place or hindi talaga ako pupunta. Ako kasi yung taong ayaw kong hinihintay ako kaya might as well ako na yung maaga.

24.) Mahilig ako sa Kape

• Isa akong Coffee Addict. Nakaka dalawa (2) or tatlong (3) timpla ako ng kape sa isang araw. Favorite ko din na makatikim ng iba't-ibang klaseng kape at hindi buo ang araw ko kung hindi ako makakapagkape.

25.) Ayoko ng feeling na tinataguan/iniiwasan

• Ayoko talaga ng ganyan kasi may pagkaparanoid ako (kahit hindi ako yung tinataguan feeling ko talaga ako) kaya nagbabago agad yung mood ko.

So ayan ang mga bagay-bagay na marahil karamihan sa mga kaibigan ko ay hindi alam tungkol sakin. Nasa mood sana akong mag-emo ngayon pero ayoko talaga magpost ng ganun ngayon (alam kong hinihintay ng friend kong ipost ko yun para may mapagusapan kami pero not this time)

I'm gonna take my time
Make sure that the feeling's right
Instead of staying up all night
Wondering where you are

***

I can't stop wondering why
You're taking so long to find

***

I'm gonna fall in love
Someday, somewhere you'll show up
I'm gonna get that old feeling
I'm gonna get that old high

Bakit kaya?

July 11, 2013 / 9:00am / Thursday

Nitong mga nakalipas na linggo, ako'y napapag-isip-isip, nababagabag sa tanong na paulit-ulit kong tinatanong sa sarili ko.. isang tanong na tila naitanong na ng karamihan sa kanilang sarili sa pag-aasam ng isang matinong sagot..

bakit kaya sinasayang ng ibang tao yung chance para pahalagahan yung isang taong once lang dadating sa buhay nila?

Napapaisip nalang ako tuwing gabi or tuwing ako ay mag-isa sa bahay habang nagpapahinga; na bakit nila sinasayang yung mga panahon at pagkakataon nila na magbigay ng oras para sa nagiisang tao na once lang dumadaan sa buhay ng bawat isa? Ni hindi nga iyon nararanasan ng iba kaya nga ang tingin ko sa mga taong may pinapahalagahan eh masuswerte dahil may isang tao na dumaan sa buhay nila na nakita at nagustuhan sila sa kung sino sila. Para sa akin rare yun dahil marami na sa panahon ngayon na panlabas lang ang tinitignan at bibihira na yung mga taong tumitingin hindi lamang sa panlabas kundi pati sa panloob na katangian.

Hindi ba nila alam na napakaswerte nila dahil mayroong nagpapahalaga sa kanila? tapos hindi man lang nila ito binibigyan ng importansya? oo nga sabihin na nating unfair ang buhay pero sana naman wag na silang dumagdag sa kontekstong yun. Hindi nila siguro nakikita yung tunay na halaga nung tao, na hindi nila iniisip na mayroong ibang tao na gugustuhing makipagpalit ng posisyon sakanya. 

Sa libu-libong pagkakataon na tayoy nagkasama
Iilang ulit palang kitang makitang masaya
Naiinis akong isipin na ginaganyan ka nya
Siguro ay hindi niya lang alam ang iyong
Tunay na halaga

Kanta ito ng bandang Parokya ni Edgar na nakilala noong 2000s.. Nakakainis isipin diba? Pagkatapos kong makadaupang palad ang mga taong nagpapahalaga ngunit hindi napapahalagahan (hindi ako tumutukoy sa iisang tao lang, marami na rin akong nakilala na may ganitong hinanakit), hindi ko maiwasang mainis sa mga nakarelasyon nila, sa pagbabalewala nila sa mga nagpapahalaga sakanila na ngayon ay iniwan nilang nag-iisa. 

Ang dami-dami naman diyang iba
Wag kang mangangambang baka wala ka nang ibang Makita
Na lalake na magmahal sayo
At hinding hindi nya sasayangin ang pag-ibig mo

Dun sa mga naiwan o hindi nakaramdam ng pagpapahalaga, sa tingin ko naman tama na yung ginawa nila na paglayo at pagtatapos sa isang relasyon na mas maraming problema ang dala kaysa sa sarap ng pagsasama.. sabi nga nila marami pang iba dyan at sabi din sa kanta ng PnE "Wag kang mangangambang baka wala ka nang makita na lalake na magmamahal sayo, at hinding hindi nya sasayangin ang pag-ibig mo" dahil marami pa talaga or baka nga nandyan lang sa tabi nyo na naghihintay lang din na mapansin nyo. Masarap ang may minamahal at pinapahalagahan na pahahalagahan ka din. Naranasan ko na din yan kaya napapasabi ako ng mga ganitong bagay, kaya nga't nanghihinayang ako sa mga taong hindi nakakaramdam,  mga taong hindi marunong magpahalaga. 

Minsan hindi ko maintindihan
Parang ang buhay natin ay napagti-tripan
Medyo Malabo yata ang mundo
Binabasura ng iba ang siyang pinapangarap ko

Masakit makitang binabasura ng iba yung taong pinapangarap mo. Oo masakit talaga yan lalo na't alam mo ang nangyayari sa pagitan nilang dalawa na para bang andun ka at nanunuod ng soap opera sa tv. Hindi nila alam na may taong handang sumalo sa pangarap nya para lang mapunan yung pagkukulang nang nauna. Na kahit abutin ng matagal na panahon ay ayos lang sa kanila.

Anong gagawin ko? hindi ako magdadalawang-isip na pahalagahan yung iniwan nila dahil may nakita akong hindi nila nakita. Na alam kong worth pahalagahan at worth taking the risk. Dahil alam ko din kung anong pakiramdam ng maiwan at hindi pahalagahan. Yan ang naging kalbaryo ko sa loob ng nakaraang dalawang taon. Alam ko kung paano pahalagahan ang isang tao lalo na't karapat-dapat syang sumaya nang walang iniisip mula sa nakaraan. 

(as of the moment, wala akong pinatutungkulang specific na tao / mga tao sa post na ito, sariling pananaw ko ito at maaaring magbago sa pagdaan ng mga araw)

Pagbabaliktanaw

July 9 2013, 4:30pm, Tuesday

Para bago naman, magtatagalog ako sa blog ko na to. Since nung huling post ko dito (which is nung March pa), marami akong pinagkaabalahan sa aking buhay-buhay. Nakapunta ako sa iba't-ibang lugar na first time ko lang mapuntahan (isa na dito yung makapag gala sa Shangri La o kaya pumunta sa Quezon City para kumuha ng Birth Certificate sa NSO), marami rin akong natry na iba't-ibang pagkain (mga turo-turo na wala dito sa amin), marami din akong nakasalamuhang mga tao (more than one is many).

Well, nagback read ako ng mga post ko nung ako'y nag-aaral pa at nakita kong napakadrama pala ng buhay kolehiyo ko. Alam ko namang nag-enjoy ako sa mga pinaggagawa namin noon or ni wala man akong regrets sa mga taong nakilala o nakadaupang palad ko ng mga panahon na yon. Masasabi ko lang na malaki ang pasasalamat ko sa lahat ng taong naging kaibigan ko at naging malapit sa akin sa limang taon ko sa kolehiyo (oo limang taon, wag mo nang itanong kung bakit), basta nagpapasalamat ako sa kanila dahil nairaos ko ang aking pagiging estudyante nang dahil sa kanila. so para sa mga katropa ko nung college, Ka Jords at Ka JM, sa bestfriend/shitmate/mome kong si Jam na walang kapantay, sa aking ama na si X, sa mga kapatid ng aking mome na sina Pritchi at Pat, kasama na din sa listahan ang aking lemon na si Mae, sa aking nag-iisang anak na si Lue, sa mga walang katapusang kwentuhan kasama sina Mel at Jo, sa kakulitan ni Peps at Boj.. at sa ibang anonymous na hindi ko na mababanggit dahil hindi naman to last will and testament.

Inaamin ko naman na madrama talaga ang buhay kolehiyo ko, ganyan talaga, pag nagmahal tayo, masasaktan tayo (hindi naman pwedeng puro sarap lang). Ang sa akin lang eh i wish na maging happy sya sa mga ginagawa nya at maging successful sya sa buhay. Marami rin akong natutunan dahil sa mga pangyayari, natutuo akong makinig sa mga pinagsasabi ni Papa Jack sa radyo, sa pag-antabay sa airing ng BNO (Boys Night Out) at natutunan ko din mag-open up sa mga tropa ko (hindi talaga ako pala salita tungkol sa mga ganitong bagay sa personal kaya marami akong nailalagay sa mga ganitong blog). Naging masaya din naman ako dahil naranasan ko ang magkaroon ng pinapahalagahan sa buhay.

So ano na ngayon? nakahanap na rin ako ng trabaho sa isang unibersidad sa may Maynila. Okay na din ang pasweldo kahit na simula sa baba (mas mataas ng kaunti sa minimum pay). Okay din naman yung environment ng paaralan, wala na kong reklamo dun. Okay din kasi makikita ko yung kaibigan kong itatago natin sa pangalang Azalea dahil dun sya napasok bilang estudyante. Tsaka marami na rin akong nakilala dun na sa tingin ko ay okay lang na makasalamuha. Well, mas masaya magkaroon ng mga panibagong experience so go lang ng go.

sa tingin ko mahaba na ito at marami man akong kalungkutang dinaranas ngayon na kahit dito ay ayaw ko nang ilagay, marami na rin akong nasabi na naipagpapasalamat ko at may naaalala pa ko sa aking mga pinagdaanan na nakatulong ng malaki sa kung sino ako ngayon. Kahit na naguguluhan ako sa sarili ko sa ngayon, kailangan maging masaya parin. hanggang dito nalang muna..

PS: wag nyong papanuorin yung A Millionaire's First Love kung ayaw nyong maiyak sa dulo.. hahahahaha, yan ang naging source ng kalungkutan ko nitong mga nakaraang araw..

How To Get A Postal ID

3:12PM March 14, 2013 - Thursday

I decided to get a Postal ID (the easiest valid id that you can get as they say) in our city of Bacoor in the province of Cavite. I have searched in different forums about how much a postal id cost and based on some blog authors.. it only range from 200-300 and you can get it minutes after you have filed for one as long as you have complete requirements which are the following:

• 3pcs 2x2 picture (white background, wear shirts with collar)
• Birth Certificate (photocopy of NSO or LCR birth certificate will do)
• Cedula (issued by the Barangay)
• Barangay Clearance

So first thing in the morning after i did my morning routine (jogging and exercise), I've waited until 9am to be sure that the barangay hall is open. There i was first in line and when i asked if i could get a Cedula and a Barangay Clearance, the barangay secretary asked for a Voter's Clearance. He explained to me why is it needed:

1. Its an initial requirement before getting a Clearance.
2. It will be an assurance or proof that you are from that municipality/barangay/sitio
3. If you're residing in a subdivision (such as my case), you must get it from your Home Owners Association President.
4. I don't know you (he literally said that)

If i knew that there is a thing called a Voter's Clearance needed, I would be willing to get one ahead of time but the problem was I'm not even a registered voter. So i asked the secretary again regarding my case (non registered voter) and he just said " you still need to get a Voter's Clearance from *insert HOA President's name here*.. then i'll give you you're clearance. Hindi kasi kita kilala".. The phrase "Hindi kasi kita kilala" or simply in english " I don't know you"  set it off for me. So does it mean that everybody should befriend you in order to get a clearance? what's wrong with that secretary?

Anyways, I went to our homeowners association and asked for a Voter's Clearance and they asked me if i was a registered voter and i said no. They can't give me a clearance because its just for those who are registered as a voter and not for non registered ones. 

So how will i get my Barangay Clearance now? first thing i did was call the Comelec Office here in Cavite and asked what to do (yep, you can ask them that).. i talked to a woman over the phone and told me to get a Certificate of Non Registration from the nearest Comelec office (usually its located in your Municipal Hall) and then present it to the barangay in order for me to get a Barangay Clearance. She also wondered why is it a requirement for a clearance so i just said i don't know. Still i did not procure one because i told my sister to call the barangay to settle the issue and yes, the barangay secretary gave in. I also asked for a Cedula so he gave me one. Just to be sure i asked him what are the requirements to get a Postal ID and he said the things above (bulleted). I've shown him my birth certificate and asked him if it was valid (it was a LCR Birth Certificate) and he said its okay. So for those who only have their LCR BC with them, you don't need to get a NSO Certified one for the Postal ID. When he saw my maiden name, he apologized to me and said "sorry hindi po kasi kita nakilala". I just said its okay (i'm not angry at that time,, just pissed lol). He added "dapat sinabi mong *insert maiden name here* para naissue-han na kita agad ng barangay clearance".. Sorry but i am not the type of person who will use his/her maiden name to get ahead of system. but now i know there's a perk for being a member of one of the known clan in our area. LOL..

I went to the Bacoor Municipal Hall situated in Bacoor Bayan. For those who don't know how to get there, here are the two routes i usually take:

• Route 1: From our place (Near Molino) ride a jeepney going to Zapote Talaba/ Baclaran. Get off at Zapote Talaba and ride a jeepney going to Binakayan. Pay 8php and tell the driver to drop you off in the Munisipyo
• Route 2: From SM Bacoor, ride a jeepney/ Baby bus going to Binakayan or Mabolo. Get off at Mabolo and ride a jeepney going Bacoor Bayan or Zapote Kabila. Pay 8php and tell the driver to drop you off in the Munisipyo.

 Go to the Post Office (beside Regional Trial Court) and go in the office. Ask the man in the first table that you're getting a Postal ID. present him the requirements and he will give you 2 pieces of the form you will need to fill up. Accomplish the form and wait for him to send you to the next room. He will also ask you to keep your Cedula with you.

Inside the next room, you will see a sign "POSTAL ID" in one of the tables there. A woman will issue you a receipt stating that its only 175 but she will get 350 from you. The additional fee of 175 is divided into:

• Notary
• Document Seals
• A Signature
• Lamination

And there's an additional fee of 80php if you don't have a 2x2 pic with you (or if you have the wrong one/ non collared)

After I have paid for the fees, the woman issued me the receipt and told me to go back the next day at 2pm to get the ID, just present the receipt on the guy outside. (if you won't be able to get the ID at 2pm-5pm the next day, you can get it the following days anytime.)

ADDITIONAL INFORMATION:

Getting a Certificate of Non Registration

1. Go to the Municipal Hall (Its in Bacoor in my case)
2. Go to the 4th floor and look for the Comelec Office
3. Bring with you your Cedula and a Valid ID
4. Present your Cedula and ID if it was asked 
5. You will then be asked to wait or go back the next day

Getting a Voter's Clearance (if you're a registered voter and doesn't have his voter's id still)

Living in a Subdivision:

• Ask an officer from your Home Owners Association as to where and when you can get one (Usually they will point you to the President of your HOA)
• Ask for the Clearance (make sure he/she signs the clearance or else it will be null and void; also make sure that the one signing is the President of your HOA, the Barangay officials know who the President of each HOA in their area)

 Not part of a Subdivision

• Go to the Barangay Hall and talk to the Barangay Secretary, he/she will tell you where you can get one or who will you talk to in order to get one. (There was a girl next to me that was asked to get a voter's clearance from a specific person in their area)
• Go to the location and ask that person for a Voter's Clearance (the person's signature is very important) 
• When you leave the Barangay Hall, he/she will call that person to notify him/her of your arrival (the secretary will probably phone him/her)

*If you have your Voter's ID with you, just present it to the secretary to be able to get your Barangay Clearance. No need for a Voter's Clearance.

Hello Valentines...

8:14pm  Sunday

Valentines day is coming and its either red rose or red horse day. Why? Its a day for couples and singles alike, giving roses to your dearie girlie of your life or drown in a case of Red Horse cause some girlie / boyet dumped or friendzoned you in the past. Well, just don't do anything stupid for the V-Day. If you're in a relationship, its good if you cherish what you have because others are going solo for the time being and same for those single out there, enjoy your freedom that some couples have limits on. No matter what your relationship status for the moment, V-Day is for everyone. Go ahead and enjoy it..