quote quote / think-a-lots part 30

hindi ko alam kung bakit napablog ako ng wala sa oras..dahil na rin siguro sa wala akong ginagawa sa ngayon.. at sa pagkakabasa ko sa blog ng isang matinding ninja..parehas kami ng pag-iisip at iniisip..wala namang saysay kung gumawa ako ng kaparehang blog na kung saan eh parehas lang din ang ilalagay ko..so hiningi ko ang permiso ng butihing ninja para irepost ang kanyang blog sa blog na ito..

"Hindi ko lang kasi ma-gets kung anong gustong sabihin ni Self. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit kahit ako ay naguguluhan sa pangyayari na to. I mean, hindi ba dapat malinaw na sa akin ang mga bagay-bagay. Pero siyempre, sabi ko nga kanina, if it is Love that talks, aba eh, wala na tayong dapat pag-usapan. Bottom line: sobrang mahal na mahal ko siya. And I'm doing every possible way para matabihan ang puso niya.

Okay, so isa-isahin natin. Bakit nga ba ako nag-he-hesitate na sumulong? Una, yung nasira kong pangako ng oras. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, busy-busyhan ka kasi eh, gago ka. Pero sinabi ko, na I'm trying to balance everything. Gusto kong patunayan na kaya ko naman ang lahat basta may tamang management. Binibigyan ng panahon ang lahat ng bagay as fair as I can. Pero totoo, may mga oras ngang dapat nandun ako, pero hindi ko nagawa. Pero ayokong magdahilan. Totoo naman kasi yung sinasabi ko na may responsibilidad ako sa bahay na hindi ko naman talaga maiwan. Call me a home body mama's boy. Pero, trust me, wala kasing ibang magtutulungan. Now to my second point, lagi na lang kasi akong may sabit. Everytime na lang. I would do something na hindi ko namamalayan. Super manhid nga naman ako. Nasaktan ko na, hindi ko pa alam. And I do not deny that. Baduy na ako, no? Go get a beer, para maaliw ka na lang.

Pero above all these, lagi naman ako nagsasabing, na ginagawa ko ang lahat para magbago na ako. Totoo, I'm really trying hard. Minsan lang talaga may mga limitation din ako. De, totoo, wag na tayong magbiruan at magkunwari. Kasi totoo naman, hindi ako tulad ng maraming lalaki. Wala akong absolute freedom, kasi I have responsibilities, sabi ko nga kanina. Pero, as much as possible, I try to make up for those time na nawala ko. Isa pang bagay, hindi naman talaga ako creative, so I cannot put on a show any time kahit gustuhin ko pa, kailangan man o hindi. "

ito ang blog ni matinding ninja..hindi ko alam pero ganitong ganito din ang nararamdaman ko sa ngayon.. i won't deny anything written in here..

this one is from me......it would serve as my own message for her....

I don't care about what other people think.. Because I love you .. what i am trying to say is..
You completed my life, And I would never think of finding a wonderful and perfect girl like you anywhere else, you are one of a kind... The big smile on my face you saw before, that smile of yours is the reason behind it; only with you i can possess that smile of mine..You're the reason why I changed, I stopped bullying people (well, kinda),I stopped being an asshole like i used to be, I stopped all my bad ways, Do you know why?.. it is because I wanna be with you and I dont wanna lose you...ever.....

i wanna chill / think-a-lots part 29

i didn't know why i opened up this "Compose Blog Entry" part of multiply this early morning..
actually i didn't open this up..after i signed in to my account it just so happen that it automatically been redirected to this entry..

as of now..i'm sipping in hot coffee while inside the office, PSP music..i wanna chill as long as i can before starting my work..

still a bit undecided on what i am supposed to do when that day comes.. the guy who is always sure on what he'll do became the guy who's not sure on everything.. what the heck man... in the most simplest things he become so unsure of it..leaving the decision part to hang on a balance.. what will happen if i still think this way when that day comes.. i'm preparing myself to straighten the way i see things around me..

the feeling's the same.. it's the only thing that keeps me going for 2 long months... so i should say..

it feels good seeing her yesterday, still equipped with the smile and the aura i fell in love with..

Sure I may be quiet now, but eventually everything I'm feeling and thinking is going to come out... Can't promise what I'll say...

she's the one.....if you don't believe it..then we're not on the same wavelength....

Gandhi said that whatever you do in life will be insignificant, but it's very important that you do it because nobody else will. Like when someone comes into your life and half of you says: "You're nowhere near ready". And the other half says: "Make her yours forever". They asked me what would I say if I knew you could hear me. I said: "I do know. I love you. God, I miss you..

a reblog from some app..

You are influential and persuasive (whatever). You tend to have a lot of power over people (come again?).
Generally, you use your powers for good (okay..?). You excel at solving other people's problems (their problem, not mine).
Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest (maybe...).

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection (quite the opposite).
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive (somewhat).
You have the classic "Type A" personality (i don't know what this is about).

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life (dunno about this too).
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you (agree).
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself (heck yeah).

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow (*fist-bump*).
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily (*fist-bump again*).
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is (the heck..my fists are hurting.. *fist-bump again*).