Friday, September 20, 2013

Encounters with Silly Qs

September 20, 2013 Friday
2:14pm

There are times in our lives that we are asked silly slash stupid questions by random people somewhere over the rainbow. It might be kinda rude not to answer those Qs without blurting out sarcastic answers (being able to process sarcasm / sarcastic thoughts is a sign of a healthy brain function) to them and some you would find offensive. It just happens to everyone i think but actually its fun to answer them as witty as possible. Through out my first existence as a human person in this world (some culture says that if you have a birthmark, that's the reason or cause of your death in your first existence), i too encountered those questions by people unknown to me. Well, some of them are worth the discussion which will be written here.

First Question: Why aren't you discussing with your group? (as asked by most of my teachers and professors during my time being a student)

It's not that i don't have anything to say to the group nor i do not have any ideas to give them, its just that i am the kind of human person that usually observes first before doing or saying anything. I do gather their (groupmates) ideas and mash them with mine, separating same to other ideas that i have. Principle wise, its my way of giving you the stage so that you can throw in your piece, i'll hear you out and hopefully when its my time to talk then you'll listen to my piece as well. Silence does not always connotes negligence or not knowing anything or for some, being shy. Sometimes those description of why a person stays silent is true, but most of the time; its not. I do find silence as my means of observing others. Most of my friends would catch me dead silent on a corner while they are discussing something but they do know why. I do observe a lot, most of the time i just put my headset on then do my observation routine. Usually during first meetings, i don't talk much; I just listen and observe the other person (mannerisms, tone of voice, gestures) so that i will know how to interact with him/her. Believe me its quite useful because i always do this. :)

Second Question: What separates you from other guys? (this one was thrown by my Socio-Anthropology professor way back 1st year college)

I dunno, hobbies wise, I do play a lot of games (from sports to platform gaming to the larong kalye of the 90's). I mainly play (platform wise) RTS (Real Time Strategy / Front Mission series to Romance of the Three Kingdoms) games, HacknSlash (Dynasty Warriors to Warriors Orochi 1 and 2) , and a little bit of RPG (Role Playing Games / Final Fantasy domain to Suikoden series) and right now i'm into playing League of Legends like any other gamer guys. I do a lot of sports before i took an arrow to the knee (lol, i just injured my knee). Right now, i do enjoy swimming, badminton, basketball and tennis. 

I don't dress to impress. I just wear whats available in the closet as long  as i'm comfortable with it. Plain shirts + cargo pants/ jogging pants + sneaks or running shoes are my getup since highschool. Sometimes i go out wearing plain tops + shorts + havs or sandals as long as i'm going out with my buddies ahaha. They always say wear something that you're comfortable with so yeah, i wear what i want not because i need to impress others but because i'm comfortable with it. In my highschool circle of old friends, we have this "be in your best pambahay attire" everytime we meet thus saving us the time of picking bongacious clothings.

I'm a boyscout when it comes to emergency things. I always have an umbrella with me, medicine for headaches and antihistamines. I do have bandaids and cotton balls hidden away in my bag. I always bring a spare phone with me in case my main phone dies out. I also bring extra handkerchief or face towel wherever I go. 

Sometimes i bring my laptop with me to work but right now, i only bring my PSP with me (yeah, i play while at work). I always have music playing in my station. I do have my own tumbler for my coffee (coffee lover here lol).

I really don't know what separates me from other guys but some of my friends stated that i'm not like the other guys they know. I think its on how i handle things. I always think before i do something (I usually buy more options than settling just for the last resort thing.) I just wanna take things smoothly. I don't rush things whether some that needs immediate decision ( i see to it that i will take my time thinking about it before deciding). Some says i have this weird aura (I dunno what they are saying but i hope its positive hahahaha)

Third Question: Why do you have few friends? (asked by my mentor at work)

First of all, i have trust issues. I do trusted a lot of people way back but then destroyed my trust. Those who I call my friends now are those people whom I met and trusted, whom i enjoyed being with and most of all, those who value the word TRUST. I don't need a lot of friends (i'm no networking service) who can talk at my back. What i have is a solid circle of people who i can trust and run into for small talks or advices. I have two solid groups of people whom i respect and trust at the same time: Trekking (highschool buds) and 20-five (college buds). I do value both groups the same, no biases whatsoever. We have disputes, we solve them by talking not by bashing. The importance of having comrades during a war is that you have a team to rely on and its the same as having a solid network of close friends that you can rely and trust. If ever there would be an earthly catastrophe (zombie outbreak / the last of us thing) that would happen, i would choose to be with those guys because we as a group knows our own limits and capabilities which is quite the basics of being in a group. Last thing i have to say is that do not trust everybody that you meet, learn to trust only those who've made themselves known to you and continues to prove themselves worthy to be part of your life.

Sunday, September 8, 2013

Bus thoughts

Sept 08, 2013  10:10pm
Sunday

Why the ominous looking eyes?
Blank empty eyes of yours
What really happened?
Why the hate? 

I don't hate
I don't get mad
I just don't

What do you want?
What do you need?

Nothing

Do you wear contacts?
Natural brown eyes?

I dunno, i haven't noticed. Are they?

Yes, but they're blank
emotionless, deep dark.. scary.

I am.

Looks could kill
Do you know that?

If it can then I'm already a murderer

You know what?
You're weird.

From your point of view, maybe..
But from mine..

I am normal and everybody else is weird..


Friday, August 9, 2013

How to Move On (Para sa mga hirap makalimot)

August 9 2013 Friday
10:13am

I know its hard for majority of us to forget someone who gave us memories to cherish, those tight long hugs and encouragements. But at some point in time, he/she decided to end it all up.. He/she thinks that its for the best even if you don't want to break up with him/her (when one stops to make the effort, the relationship would surely die down). It feels like the whole world turned against you, it like a nightmare that suddenly came into reality.. You started to shun others of your attention, you feel like you're just a trash that nobody likes. But what if i tell you (not just me but others as well) that someone out there cares for you? someone out there doesn't want you to suffer, that someone out there wants to see you smile again and he/she can love you better than the last one but you keep on ignoring him/her and even your friends. Its not healthy for you to stay on that state, you need to move on but you'll ask "How?" and follow up with phrases like "he's the one" etc etc.. So lets get straight to the point..

How to Move On:

Let me first say that i'm no expert on this trivial point in everyone's life..no one is. This is just to give you an idea on how to move on and enjoy life more. I will be using Filipino in this one (easier for me to explain using my mother tongue)
Cry it all out 
Iiyak mo yan hanggang gaano mo katagal gusto. Its a way for you to ease the PAIN. Mapapansin mo nalang isang araw hindi ka na iiyak pa for the same reason.
Talk to your FRIENDS
Spend time talking to your friends. Wag kang magkulong sa kwarto mo or sa mundong nasa isip mo. Yung mga kaibigan mo ang magiging sandalan mo sa mga panahon na ito at sila rin ang makakaintindi sa pinagdaraanan mo. Ilabas mo lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman mo sa pagkausap sa iyong mga kaibigan.
Wag maging ASSUMING
eto yung nangyayari sa mga bagong break up lang. Iniisip mo na babalik pa sya (same lang kahit ikaw yung nakipagbreak, aminin mo man o hindi, may time na iniisip mong sana bumalik pa sya) pero itigil mo na ang ganyang pag-iisip. Kung totoong mahal ka nya, hindi ka nya iiwan, gagawa sya ng effort para magkita kayo sa mga planado nyong pagkikita at hindi puro pangako nalang na laging napapako. Stop Assuming mga boyet at girlie.
ERASE YOUR BITTERNESS
Mahirap magpatawad. Aminin natin yan lalo na kung niloko tayo ng taong iyon. Kung ikaw naman ang nakipagbreak, same thing lang, wag kang magpakabitter kapag may bago na sya. Galaw galaw din. Kailangan mong alisin yung galit at lungkot sa puso mo. Isipin mo na parang sinisigaw na sayo ni God na "HINDI SIYA ANG PARA SAYO ANAK." and everything happens for a reason (kahit ikaw pa ang nakipagbreak still it happens for a reason) .
ACCEPT
Tanggapin mo na wala na kayo, tanggapin mo na nakipagbreak ka na. Balang araw magpapasalamat ka dahil iniwan ka nya (o iniwan mo sya). Marami pang pagkakataon na makakita ka ng magmamahal sayo.
GIVE YOURSELF A CHANCE TO LOVE SOMEONE ELSE
Hindi ko sinasabing maghanap kayo ng rebound boyet / girlie. The point is "ilaan mo yung time mo sa ibang mga bagay, kapag may pumasok na tao sa buhay mo na naglakas loob magtapat sayo, give him/her a chance to love you. PERO wag na wag na wag mo syang lolokohin dahil ganun din ang naramdaman mo, mas magandang ireciprocate mo yung feelings of love towards the guy/girl, makakatulong na sa pag mmove on mo, sasaya pa kayo. Wag mo rin syang paasahin, if nagtapat sya sayo and you still can't commit then say it straight. Kapag sinabi nyang maghihintay sya, let him pero pag wala talaga, sabihin mo. Mahirap maghintay at umasa.
BE WISE 
Hindi masamang magmahal ng WAGAS pero magtira ka parin para sa sarili mo, don't give 100%. Kung sa tingin mo naman eh mas magiging okay ka sa bagong naghihintay sayo, let the feelings evolve, develop or mature kung ano man ang tamang term. 


Hindi madali, aaminin ko rin yan. Pero moving on is a process, take it slowly, step by step and love again. Aaminin ko na matagal din ako bago nakamove on. Matagal na process pero kakayanin dapat.

 

Sunday, August 4, 2013

Random things about me

August 4, 2013
10:32pm Sunday

So I'm back with another set of random things about me that i saw from the internet. Let us begin!!

What is your middle name?: Gayamo

What was favourite subject at school?: PE, Science and World History

What is your favourite drink?: Kopiko Brown Coffee

What is your favourite song at the moment?: Fade Away by Sugarfree (too bad they already disbanded -_-)
 What is your favourite food?: Pasta! (except for Carbonara)

What is the last thing you bought?: A forty pesos (PhP 40.00) earplugs in CD-R King


Favourite book of all time?: Stainless Longganisa by Bob Ong

Favourite Colour?: White

Do you have any pets?: Yes

Favourite Perfume?: oh i forgot the name.. lol

Favourite Holiday?: New Year

Are you married?: Nope

Have you ever been out of the country, if so how many times?: Nope

Do you speak any other language?: Yeah, besides my native tongue (Filipino), I'm very well versed in English, 5%  Japanese, 5 stars in Gibberish.

How many siblings do you have?: One sister and one brother (i'm the youngest)

What is your favourite shop?: None

Favourite restaurant?: I have 2 faves (3 if you consider Paotsin as a restaurant) so it would be World of Chicken and Shakeys

When was the last time you cried?: 9years ago (according to my other post way back)

Favourite Blog?: none


Favourite Movie?: I am Legend, League of Extraordinary Gentleman, Pirates of the Caribbean (all of them), Lord of the Rings Trilogy, The Matrix Trilogy, Bruce Almighty, Seven Pounds

Favourite TV show?: Heroes, Anthony Bourdain (all of his shows), 15minute meals with Jamie Oliver, Iron Chef

PC or Mac?: PC

What phone do you have?: LG L3 E400 and Samsung Champ

How tall are you?: 5ft 8.5in

Can you cook?: Yes.

So that's it.. i'm trying to find others like this one cause its fun to answer these kinds of questions. lol

Sunday, July 21, 2013

25 Things About Me

Sunday / July 21, 2013 / 8:26 pm

Dapat talaga puro rants lang ang ilalagay ko sa blog kong to ngayon, pero dahil sobra sobra na yung pagka BV ko for the past 2 days.. I decided not to continue with the "emo" theme of the whole blog (ayokong nagpapatama kahit na kanino kaya might as well keep it for myself). So now, eto nalang muna ang ipopost ko..

25 Things You May or May Not Know About Me

1.) Wala akong sariling kwarto
  • Yep, naghahati kami ng aking kuya sa isang malaking kama (kasya apat na tao kapag nakahiga, lagpas isang dosena kapag nakatayo) at malakas na electric fan.
2.) Mahilig ako sa Pancit
  • Kahit anong luto sa Pancit okay ako (lalo na kapag Pansit Habhab) :3
3.) May walo (8) akong tropa nung highschool at hanggang ngayon tropa parin
  • Yung iba sa kanila since Grade 5 pa. So alam na namin ang takbo ng mga utak ng isa't-isa
4.) May dose (12) akong tropa nung college
  • 1st course ko ay Nursing pero wala na kong kaconnect sa mga naging kaibigan ko doon (yep, kahit pagbati lang ng Happy birthday wala. Nung lumipat ako ng Communication, nagkaroon ako ng mga bagong tropa. Inaamin ko sa doseng katao na yan, meron akong kinoconsider na inner circle (lima sila)
5.) Di ako nagala ng malayo kapag walang kasamang katropa
  • Nakakaboring kaya yun kapag wala kang kasama
6.) Touchy akong tao
  • Ganun lang talaga ako kaya wag kayong matakot sakin kung bigla ko kayong kalabitin, hawakan or i-hug (eto eh nakasanayan na nung nasa college pa ko, para sa amin eto yung form of greeting namin sa tropa)
  • Gustong gusto kong hinahawakan yung kamay (kapag babae lang ah, di talo ang mga boys)
7.) Old School in terms of Panliligaw
  • Yep, ako yung taong mabagal kumilos pagdating jan, dahil pinakikiramdaman ko lahat ng kinikilos ko at nung isa. Wala akong maipagmamalaking talent (kung talent yung angking galing sa pagkuha ng datos tungkol sa ibang tao na di ko kakilala, pwede na). May pagka torpe talaga ako kasi marami na kong napagdaanan na di kanais nais.
  • Hindi ako nagbibitiw ng L word hangga't hindi ko naipaparamdam. Paramdam muna bago banggit.
8.) Ako yung laging huling nagcconfirm sa mga lakad
  • May rule ako sa mga tropa ko nung highschool na kapag may event or gala, hindi ako pupunta kung hindi sila lahat pupunta (yup and they know about it kaya di sila nagpplan ng mga event/party na di makakapunta yung iba kasi di ako pupunta)
9.) Tinatawag akong "Boss" nung mga tropa ko nung highschool
  • Hindi ko alam kung paano or saan nagsimula pero itatanong ko sakanila kung bakit.
10.) Nakatago lahat ng mga luma kong cellphone
  • Lahat sila nagana (with matching complete accessories pa). Kaya ko sila tinatago ay para sa mga emergency situations (tulad nalang kung kelangan kong sirain yung pader namin, gagamitin ko yung nokia ko.)
11.) Napagkakasya ko ang 200 sa isang araw ng galaan
  • Hindi ako magastos na tao at hindi rin ako kuripot na tao. Okay na ko sa lunch na turo-turo or yung Paotsin sa SM.
12.) Di pa ko naliligaw sa tanang buhay ko
  • Mukhang hindi makatotohanan pero maniwala kayo't sa hindi totoo yan. Siguro nung nagpasabog si God ng sense of direction, nagssun bathing ako. 
13.) May sarili akong mundo kapag naka earphones na ko
  • Earphones on - Max Volume - World Off (pero hindi ibig sabihin na di ko na kayo naririnig kapag naguusap kayo. Isa pa ito sa mga "talent" na meron ako; kahit bulong lang yan basta within 0-3meters away naririnig ko yan).
  • Isa din itong indication na ayokong makisali sa usapan ninyo or ayoko lang marinig ang pinag-uusapan nyo
14.) Ayoko nung hindi ko naiintindihan yung pinag-uusapan nila
  • Nakaka alien kaya tsaka nakaka - OP pag ganun
15.) Ako ang Physical embodiment ng mga salitang "Hindi nag-aaral pero nakagraduate"
  • Dinaan ko sa stock knowledge at creativity ang college ko (dahil yun ang required sa course namin)
16.) Hindi ako nakikipag-usap online sa mga taong hindi ko gusto kausapin
  • Siguro sa buong list ko, apat lang yung kinakausap ko kaya nakakalungkot kapag hindi sila nagrereply.
17.) Marunong akong magluto pero di ko maperfect ang sunny side up na itlog
  • Marami na kong naluto na mga putahe (kahit yung mga putahe ng ibang bansa nagagawa kong iluto) pero hindi ko parin maperfect ang pagluluto ng sunny side up na itlog.
18.) Ako yung taong pala-hatid
  • Gustong-gusto kong naghahatid once na natapos yung tambay or gala kasama yung mga tropa ko (or siguro dahil nakaugalian na ang ganun samin)
 19.) I always save a number on my phone
  • Basta number na ginamit ng kaibigan ko sinasave ko (for emergency purposes at para maiwasan ko yung pagtetext ng "Hu u?")
20.) Dalawa palang mula sa lahat ng mga katropa ko ang nakapunta at nakakaalala kung nasaan ang bahay namin
  • Yep, dahil hindi ako sanay na nagpapapunta ng mga tao sa bahay namin sa kadahilanang wala akong maipapakain sa kanila at  parang gubat ang bahay namin (hindi sementado yung labas at maraming puno't mga halaman)
21.) Pag sinabi kong maghihintay ako, naghihintay ako
  • Eto na siguro yung malaking "double-edged sword" ng pagkatao ko. Basta sinabi kong maghihintay ako, naghihintay talaga ako na kadalasang nagiging sanhi ng aking mga disappointment (ayoko talaga ng naddisappoint)
23.) Its either i'm early or i'm not going
  • Lagi akong ganyan, dumadating ng sobrang aga sa meeting place or hindi talaga ako pupunta. Ako kasi yung taong ayaw kong hinihintay ako kaya might as well ako na yung maaga.
24.) Mahilig ako sa Kape
  • Isa akong Coffee Addict. Nakaka dalawa (2) or tatlong (3) timpla ako ng kape sa isang araw. Favorite ko din na makatikim ng iba't-ibang klaseng kape at hindi buo ang araw ko kung hindi ako makakapagkape.
25.) Ayoko ng feeling na tinataguan/iniiwasan
  • Ayoko talaga ng ganyan kasi may pagkaparanoid ako (kahit hindi ako yung tinataguan feeling ko talaga ako) kaya nagbabago agad yung mood ko.

So ayan ang mga bagay-bagay na marahil karamihan sa mga kaibigan ko ay hindi alam tungkol sakin. Nasa mood sana akong mag-emo ngayon pero ayoko talaga magpost ng ganun ngayon (alam kong hinihintay ng friend kong ipost ko yun para may mapagusapan kami pero not this time)

I'm gonna take my time
Make sure that the feeling's right
Instead of staying up all night
Wondering where you are


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I can't stop wondering why
You're taking so long to find

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I'm gonna fall in love
Someday, somewhere you'll show up
I'm gonna get that old feeling
I'm gonna get that old high