Taft Station / think-a-lots part 16

currently transferring files to my mp3...downloading song by batches..what else?...writing this blog...and plurking..and fb-ing.....still..nothing make me feel okay...

eto na siguro ung pangalawang day ng "pagluwas" namin sa manila to look for a practicum site..andami naming napuntahan and bagong experience sa paghahanap ng mga lugar na hindi kami familiar..di ko alam kung bakit hindi ako naliligaw kahit na hindi ko pa napupuntahan ung isang lugar...kahapon sobrang pagod kami nina rizza jm and ariel sa kakalakad..dasma to makati then kamuning then taft...tapos moa for dinner sa seaside...anong oras na din kami nakauwi... tapos ngayong araw na to naman dasma to makati ulit pero this time mas sinuyod na namin ang makati...hinanap din namin ung Arkeo for Rizza's practicum..tapos dumiretcho kaming The Fort para tignan ung Bates141 and the other Ad Agency (ung pinakamalaking ad agency sa bansa) balak pa sana namin na magpuntang DDB..kaso ginabi na kami kaya umuwi na kami agad...in that 2days of internship hunt ang dala ko lang is 200 per day...at nagsurvive ako..first day i still have 30 pesos left and kanina 60 pa...super tipid....

pero hindi talaga tungkol dito ung blog ko..oo nagenjoy ako sa mga pinaggagawa namin...pero what really made my day kahapon is ung nakasabay namin ung group nina X sa taft station...nagulat ako kasi hindi namin ineexpect na makakasabay sila and makikita ko sya nung araw na un...eto na naman ako, hindi ko sya nagawang kausapin kahit na gustong gusto ko...sobrang kinabahan ako...pero di ko pinahalata..first time kong kabahan ng ganun...its like falling in love with the same person twice..kahit na mahal mo padin...tapos parang panibago nanaman nung nakita ko sya dun...doble doble...it may sound corny  pero ganun talaga ung naramdaman ko...and naisip ko na pwede din pala akong kabahan ng ganun...pero sobrang nadown ako nung hindi ko sya nagawang kausapin..why? kasi hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko...kung papansinin ba nya ako o hindi...alam kong andami kong pagkukulang na gusto kong punan...siguro sa dami dami ng taong kilala ko isa na sya sa mga taong ayokong mawala sakin...why? mahirap maghanap ng kagaya nya..walang katulad at kapantay...

napag-isip isip ko ngayon na kahit gaano pa kahirap, gagawin ko lahat para lang di sya mawala...sabi nga nila don't give up on the things that you want..kaya hindi ako susuko...mahal ko eh...bakit ko susukuan?..oo sabihin na nating ilang linggo ko na rin syang hindi magawang kausapin..kaya nga gusto kong bumawi diba?...mabigyan lang ako ng pagkakataon talaga....hindi na ko magdadalawang isip pa....

inaantok na ko kasi 1am na oh...update ko nalang to.....pagod na rin ako sa kakabyahe........

im surprised...and at the same time nervous...its like falling in love with the same person...twice.. :)

hindi pa ko umaayaw....feeling's still the same...

Usap tayo?.... / think-a-lots part 15

okay...sabi ko nga masakit ung mata ko eh..kanina pa ko naluluha...nairita ata...

mukang busy ang karamihan sa thesis at paghahanap ng mapapag-OJT-han.. lahat kabado eh...ibang usapan na ba kapag thesis ang inaatupag?..anyways...kaya yan...

kakatapos ko lang pala manuod ng Kimi Dora sa Cinema one...wala kasing ibang movie eh..pero ok naman kahit papano...napansin ko na andun pala ung kanto boys...natawa naman ako...

sabi ni tonio kanina, ang sarap ng buhay ng nakashorts lang at tshirt sa school..tapos nakatsinelas lang at naglalaro sa laptop buong araw, pero sa pelikula lang nangyayari yun..sabi ko kahit naman sa pelikula walang ganun eh, sayang lang sa production yun..tapos kwentuhan..kala mo walang mga sariling problema kung magtawanan eh..eh halata naman na lahat may pinoproblema..dinaan nalang sa tawa para kahit papano gumaan naman...

nagkakwentuhan kami ng pinsan ko pagkauwi ko..siguro 2months ko na atang di nakita ung taong yun..pero andami naming napagusapan...may pinaalala pa sya sakin...

alam nyo naman ang mga usapan lalo na kapag magpipinsan.. lalo na't parang kapatid na turing mo sa pinsan mo..lahat lahat pwede nyong pagusapan...

nagkakwentuhan kami ng sobrang tagal..open na open ung usapan...masaya naman pero naging seryoso..

he reminded me ung nangyari sa kubo..(yes pinaalala nya sakin kasi wala na kaming topic nung panahon na un and yes nakwento ko un sakanya)..i know she's just toying with the idea of jumping out of that library..still i hold her and i don't have any reason to let her go..why?...

sabi ng pinsan ko..minsan may mga nasasabi ang isang tao na iba ang dating sayo..kaya ang nagiging sagot o resulta eh di tama ung nasasabi o sinasagot sayo..kumbaga double meaning..yun daw agad ung pumasok sa utak ko...well in fact oo...he's kinda a mind reader of sort..

when someone asks you to let go, what will you do?.. maybe she's pertaining to different things..different POV..vague...different connotation or ideas would be built from the mind of the receiver...

when she said that that day..or in that moment..to let her go..like literally let her go to that library..iba ung dating sakin..iba ung pumasok sa isip ko...kaya hindi ko nagawang bitawan sya kasi iba ung meaning sakin...ewan ko...basta hindi ko sya nagawang bitawan nung time na un..kahit after nun hindi nya ko pinansin for days i think..or maybe dahil dun kaya hanggang ngayon eh hindi kami nagpapansinan...i don't know....

iba daw ako mag-isip..saglit lang sinabi sakin un..like in a span of 2-3 seconds iba ung dumating sakin...magkaibang perspective kaagad ung nakita at naintindihan ko..and hindi ako nakapagreact or nakapagdecide agad...

tapos nagkausap ulit kami kanina lang ng pinsan ko..oo naisipan ko lang syang ipm sa facebook kasi nagpost sya sa wall ko..at ang pambungad nya kaagad...anong plano mo?..

di ako nakasagot...kahit na alam ko na kung anong dapat kong gawin still hindi ko sya nagawang sagutin..then nagsimulang mairita tong mata ko..ayun..hanggang ngayon irritated parin tong mata ko...over exposed na sa monitor at radiation kaya naiirita?.. i don't know..ang hirap kaya magtype at tumingin sa monitor na may lamat ung screen kasi napagtripang suntukin nung isang gabi...ayan oh..may rainbow color.......

now playing...

Sealed with a kiss

by

Silent Sanctuary

Though we've got to say

Goodbye for the summer

Darling, I promise you this

I'll send you all my love

Every day in a letter

Sealed with a kiss

Yes, it's gonna be a

Cold, lonely summer

But I'll fill the emptiness

I'll send you all my dreams

Every day in a letter

Sealed with a kiss

**

I'll see you in the sunlight

I'll hear your voice everywhere

I'll run to tenderly hold you

But Darling, you won't be there

I don't wanna say

Goodbye for the summer

Knowing the love we'll miss

Oh, let us make a pledge

To meet in September

And seal it with a kiss

(repeat **)

I don't wanna say

Goodbye for the summer

Knowing the love we'll miss

Oh, let us make a pledge

To meet in September

And seal it with a kiss

And seal it with a kiss

And seal it with a kiss

i would end here na...i just edited my other blog and posted this one...usap tayo?.................

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last day ng thesis defense ngayon and kami ang pinakahuling magddefense sa buong incoming 4th year..and ito na rin ata ang last ng pasukan...hayy....di na nga maganda pakiramdam mo, depressed ka pa..hai..professional dapat...ipakitang kaya....kayang kaya to...

morning........

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bakit ganun?.. kinabahan ako bigla nung nakita ko sya kanina...siguro dahil sa dinami dami ng pagkakataon na gusto ko sya makita eh kanina pa sya nagpakita...nagulat talaga ako kasi hindi ko ineexpect na makikita ko sya today kasi nga OJT na diba...hindi ko sya nagawang kausapin ...bakit ba ganon?...nyeta.........

boys day out / think-a-lots part 14

walang plano para sa mga susunod na araw..

hindi ko lubos maisip na madadagdagan pa ang Boys-Day-Out namin.. with X, JM and Jordan (as always.. meron pa bang iba?).hindi namin pinlano pero natuloy eh..nagkayayaan.. at syempre enjoy narin kahit maraming problema.. kakayanin yan..sana..

i just observed na i always have this 3 solid guys in my area..even in highschool.. highschool tropas includes JM (known as bogsz, michael, jm or tatabogsz), another JM (known as Mike, Juri, Jur, JurJur) and Bien (known as Bien, steelwool, scotchbrite, Pua, Lorenzo, Sutacio) and from the college tropas still JM, Jordan (Jords, Jordan Obmerga Garcia, Hordan) and X (dad, dade, eksqueue)..i don't know why pero mas kampante ako..siguro nasanay ako na there are always 3 best guys to back me up..and nagkataon din na nangyari to sa college..amazing..i'll always keep these 5 bros of mine..thanks for the advises and the support from all of you pero..

this song is for all of you guys.. and para na rin siguro sakanya pero not all lines are fitted for her...

Pare Ko by Ely Buendia

Pare ko meron akong prublema

Wag mong sabihing na naman

In lab ako sa isang kolehiyala

Hindo ko maintindihan

Wag na nating idaan sa moboteng usapan

Lalo lang madaragdagan ang sakit ng ulo at bilbil sa tiyan

Anong sarap

Kami'y naging magkaibigan

Napuno ako ng pag-asa

Yun pala haggang dun lang ang kaya

Akala ko ay pwede pa

(refrain)

Masakit mang isipin kailangang tanggapin

Kung kelan ka naging siryoso tsaka ka niya gagaguhin

(chorus)

O, diyos ko ano ba naman ito

Di ba

Tangina nagmukha akong tanga

Pinaasa niya lang ako

Lecheng pag-ibig to-o-o-oh

O diyos ko ano ba naman ito

Sabi niya ayaw niya munang magkasiyota

Dehins ako naniwala

Di nagtagal naging ganun na rin ang tema

Kulang na lang ay sagot niya

Bat ba ang labo niya

Di ko mapinta

Hanggang kelan maghihintay ako ay nabuburat na

Pero minamahal ko siya-a-ha

Di biro

T.L. ako sa kanya

Alam kong nababaduyan ka na sa mga sinasabi ko

Pero sana naman ay maintindihan mo

O pare ko meron ka bang maipapayo

Kung wala ay okey lang

Kailangan lang ay ang iyong pakikiramay

Andito ka ay ayos na

(Repeat refrain and chorus)

so baka mapuno ko nanaman ng lyrics to pero wala na ko maisip eh...so mga pare koy, matinding aura na parang panlaban kay boo ang kelangan ko mula sa inyo...nabembang ko na sarili ko sa last blog ko pero sa tingin ko madadagdagan ko pa yun...

sana lang naman kasi matauhan na ko noh?..ayoko na magbilang ng araw eh..sana talaga.....

Home by Chris Daughtry

I'm staring out into the night 

And trying to hide the pain 

I'm going to the place where love 

and feeling good don't ever cost a thing,

And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain

I'm going home to the place where I belong 

where your love has always been enough for me 

I'm running from you know I think you got me all wrong 

I don't regret this life I chose for me 

But these places and these faces are getting old 

So I'm going home 

The miles are getting longer it seems 

The closer I get to you.... 

I've not always been the best man and friend for you 

But your love remains true and I don't know why

You always seem to give me another try 

I'm going home 

To the place where I belong 

Where your love has always been good enough for me 

I'm running from you know I think you got me all wrong 

I don't regret this life I chose for me 

But these places and these faces are getting old 

Be careful what you wish for 

cause you just might get it all 

you just might get it all and then some you dont want 

be careful what you wish for cause you just might get it all 

You just might get it all 

I'm going home to the place where I belong 

Where your love has always been enough for me 

And I'm running from.. you know I think you got me all wrong 

I don't regret this life I chose for me' 

But these places and these faces are getting old 

But these places and these faces are getting old 

I'm going home 

I'm going home

nagplay yan nung pauwi na kami ni ka-sanggang balikat na si JM..sakto talaga eh..pauwi na kasi kami...pero i like this song..and almost all the songs of Chris Daughtry..maganda kasi talaga..ka relate much?..oo................

siguro last song nalang muna...eto talaga...dedicated to....

hindi ko pa pala nauupdate ulit ung ibang blogs ko...madami pa pala ako ilalagay dun...kapag may time na.. (bukas to malamang or sa susunod na araw..)

Kismet by Silent Sanctuary

Didn't mean to take you for granted

Didn't mean to show I don't care

Didn't mean to throw away this once in a lifetime of chance

Being with you

And I'll drive for 2 hours

To bring Butterfingers

I don't mind the distance

This kismet's a dance

This time I surrender

My everything forever

Life doesn't matter

Just our souls together

Pride no longer has room in me

On bended knees in public I cry

Your name for everyone to know that I love you, I love you

Please hear me now

And I'll drive for 2 hours

To bring Butterfingers

I don't mind the distance

This kismet's a dance

[

This time I surrender

My everything forever

Life doesn't matter

Just our souls together

This time I surrender

My everything forever

Life doesn't matter

Just our souls together

And I'll drive for 2 hours

To bring Butterfingers

I don't mind the distance

This kismet's a dance(dance, dance)

This time I surrender

My everything forever

Life doesn't matter

Just our souls together

This time I surrender

My everything forever

Life doesn't matter

Just our souls together

This time I surrender

My everything....(my everything)..ooohh...

And I'll drive for 2 hours

To bring Butterfingers

I don't mind the distance

This kismet's a dance

best song ng Silent Sanctuary na sakto sa nararamdaman ko ngayon...swak eh...kung marunong lang ako mag embed talaga.... 

oh sya next time nalang ulit............

***this is what i wanna say........***